Hello world...
Been sometime since i came to update on my happenings and rants..

Life is still going on as usual...it always is...never stopping for anyone...

Went hospital with my mom and dad on Monday..it is only then i came to realise..mount elizabeth really charge dam high for the ward and treatment...and the ward isnt all as peaceful as it seems..services too..wasnt as excellent as it claimed.
We can actually spend more than 10minutes waiting for a pillow and when we ask the nurse wheres the pillow..., she can took it out from a cupboard nearby...
The person still tell us he will get for us a pillow.and he disappeared.
It is aso only then that i realised how much pain there is for the treatment..and how much courage is required.
thanx to him..for fetchin me n jie fu n jie n lucky back home after a full day @ hospital with my dad.I know he's tired...

Yesterday, Tuesday, he was down with throat pain and tiredness i think...went home ard in the afternoon..he even offered to let me drive his car...but too bad i m still unconfident of myself plus i duno how to park...thus didnt take the car from him.

Went to find him after work...took the transport to tampines..after which mrt to pasir ris and bus to his hse..bought ju hua cha and barley for him coz he's quite heaty...and bought ard 7 doughnuts..with the thought of giving his family eat...but all ended up in his fridge.
n 2 with me

proceed home ard 1045 with his mom...coz she wanted to take disc from her parents in law there..after which we went to selegie there to have teochew porridge...one fish tail..one vege...one pork..one lala...one salted egg..2 rice n 1 porridge and 1 coke...total up ard 25.50...and its not that big plate aso.....her mom treat..den after which walk over to buy douhua..but douhua was out of stock le..too late + sell finish ..thus settle for a grass jelly drink..
On the car, her mom was telling him when her operation is and askin him to fetch her...after which..she continues...call her elder sis out together aso..when we go shopping or watch movie blah...coz scared she will anyhow think and her fren like 2 only.wellx...not that i dun wan ask her out or wad...but ...we dun even have sometime for ourselves.....but again...wad can i say..i can onli keep quiet.
it's like askin elder sister out for shoppin, watch movie...askin younger sister out ktv coz she aso very cham...very tied down...den fetchin elder bro back coz area that area...fetchin mom back from work...helpin auntie with groceries...wellx...so where's our own time?
noone say that i very cham also?
I know..his family are all gd...all of them gd to me too...i m not complaining abt helping them or wad...wad i m askin for, probably, is just some free time to ourselves...not a single day i can go out with him full for 1 day..alone me n him..happili..its either there's errands to run, or his face will be so tired and his face will be so sianx and we'll be walkin without talkin.
i duno how long will this continue..
21st Aug, 22nd Aug or anywhere near these dates...are the days where i feel dam insecure...bcos its his ex birthday.I've been wondering if he will be meeting his ex or sending her sms or even callin her...I duno..i'm afraid to ask.I'm scared its true and i will end up hurting myself.
So now i can only think and think.
Sighx.so tired.feel like slpin...
Update next time..
-wishin-