siGhx...

Been quite a long time since I did updates on my life and etc...
Had a quarrel with him on sunday night i tink...coz of issue with his work, stress and of coz me.
Felt quite disappointed coz apparently I didnt know I am also one of those thing that can drive him crazy...
Anyway that's a long issue and quarrel...thus think not expanding on it ...
It's not the 1st time this issue came up already...it's the 2nd...and I told him ...
"Dun worry, you wont feel sad again..."
With this sentence, I think maybe I've given up all those hopes and all the efforts put in..
I'm not sure about it..but I think I have really change...

Monday...
Didnt meet him ...he didnt go work coz no slp , tired and sick...i think so...
In the afternoon, he still will sms me as usual...ask me eat more...
At near 4 plus or 5 plus..he still will sms me telling me he's not fetching mi home later...
However, I think i've already expected all these...thus I dun really care..
Went home by transport @ NIE here...then after which I continue watch my Condor Hero...The china version one that the TV is currently showing...watched till ard 8 plus he called me...saying that he's on his way from
Pasir Ris(his house) to my house...So after few minutes...went down meet him and we went bukit gombak to have our dinner.
While seated there, we had a quarrel again...and that is coz of me go withdraw money.
Dun really wanna expand on that also...felt disappointed once again..He did clear this misunderstding with me but I guess I am just tired to question or ask more qns...In the end I just drink winter melon tea...
After which...the usual qn pop up again..."You wan go where?"
I am just so sick of this qn...and he already told me next time he wunt ask me think if i dont like to think.I just reply him back "I really have no place to go.I told you before already."
He drove towards town in the end..saying tat we go watch movie coz he remembers I keep want to watch "Spider lillies" starring yang chen lin...but in the end we didnt go town..we went upper selegie instead cos on the way there, i told him the show can get DL one..no nid waste money...went to eat nasi lemak and after which he send me back home and he go home...
When he reached home..gave me a call and chat a while with mi..in which i think silence more than words..

Tuesday...
Didnt meet him today...coz no car..by the time he got his car is already 11plus and think he scared that I unhappy...he waited for the car from 9 plus till 11 plus..telling me he went slp le.Anyway didnt really tok to him in the usual manner...I sounded cold I know..but wellx..sighx..

Wednesday...
I didnt sms him to even ask if he's coming to fetch me after work...I am tired of waiting for him everyday..though I admit even though I took transport back home, I still put my phone near to me...just in case he called..
However, by the time he called, I am already on bus on my way home...thus he told me he will meet me at my house there...
Wanted go clementi big bookshop initially..but was thinkin wad to eat after that..in the end thought of the "Different Taste Restaurant" he told me when we saw at bukit panjang on my way home...So told him we go there eat lor...In the end, we went pasir ris downtown eat...cos he claim there also got...but i think the reason is still coz his mom mabbe at there...want go find her to bring us go the jackpot room.
It's not that i dun like go out with his family or wadever...but just been thinkin...when will i ever have chance to just go out with him alone...without he keep saying or suggesting..we can go find blah blah n go blah together...I did told him a lot of times on this issue also...but..its the same thing over n over again...
Anyway he didnt call his mom or find his mom though when we eating there...think he sense somethin when I ask him why come downtown east eat..and after his reply..
After eating...we walk ard downtown...went the arcade..saw one kid so cute...he play the hook doll machine...after the hook went down and hook...he exclaimed "ai ya" and while the toy is on the hook moving towards the hole...he said again "ah.!." and den it dropped down the hole and he caught it...
So cute the scene...
Anyway after downtown...we went to White Sands cos i want to buy hardcover book for organizer..
Ended up at there walk for ard 1++ hr then the qn pop up again...
"Where you wan to go"
I told him again..."I got no place to go..."
His next standard line..."you wan go where i fetch you go lah"
my line.."If really no place go then go home lor"
And he send me home after that...on the way...he commented one sentence which makes me think a while..
He say "ni hao xiang bu xi huan wo le"
I ask him "huh" , pretending I didnt catch it...and he just shake his head and say nothin..

Maybe just tired of everything...or mabbe I've learnt not to have hopes or do anythin again.

Busy or Lazy

Haben realli blog a lot these days...sort of busy and sometimes is pure laziness...

For the whole of the past week...was busy cooking, rushin home etc..

cooked by my sis and me...she stir fry the pork chop =.=

pink skies...nice...

** Hopes everythin will turn out well...**

Wednesday
Went his hse and he play CS with his bro..the lsoer got to treat...in the end his brother lose...so we got free dinner...
Went fish n co with his bro n mom and have our dinner there...
Total bill ard 100 for 4 pax..
Expensive and i dun realli like the new york fish n chips i ate...too much flour..same for the original 1 he eating =\
the lime juice not bad..sour enuff..
After dinner @ tampines..we meet his younger sis and den go bek pasir ris together..after which he send me home..

tired..

Feel so tired today...i miss slpin...
think is not enuff slp le ba...
Anyway yesterday he came to fetch me off work...
and after which we proceed to eastwood there to find the doctor again...
yah...become fatter le...
the doctor say i went bek 1 month too earli le...but after some toking...
He say nvm bah..this time let me through...
and so yap...i can use the medicine again..for dieting purposes...
Doc say my carbo still a lot...and that i anyhow eat...
Yah..i becoming fat...went on the scale and i m fatter...so sad..
but nvm...food control again...and yap...i wan bek my 47.5kg T.T
was given 2 months supply which cos mi ar 204 bucks ...heart pain le...
saturday goin see dental...sure burn quite a lot there aso...
haix...been burning money these day...

on a happy note...heard from my sis that my dad finally touched the wii...they show him how to play the bowling and he finds it fun and just say "technology"
haha...hope he will find it fun to play and use it to kill time...that's the main purpose my sis wanna buy that machine...

Monday

Monday as usual , a working day...

Weekends always seem so short...

Didnt do anything today...After work went home...as simple as that..

went home and do up my puzzle and manage to complete it...

nothing else to blog abt le...

having meeting soon

Some updates....

Friday
Didnt meet him on friday coz he went dental...took the transport home...reach home so earli...b4 6pm...b4 545pm to be exact....got BBQ but lazy to go...and partly cos of the small family quarrel the previous day...no mood go...Spend time with daddy and family...

Saturday
Slpt till ard noon time 12pm plus...Called him and he's without car..=.= so took a cab down to find him..cab fare was 20 bucks...cos of a jam in pie due to choppin tree...bleahz...

went in his room while he's bathing and after which saw this cd "School for seduction" and feel like watching...so on it and start watching while he play on my sister's nintendo DS...After ard 10mins..i den confirmed that i watched the show b4...

He asked wher i wanna go but lazy me just dun feel like goin anywher...

In the end after much slacking, we went century square and catch the 1030 show..shrek 3...Cute...After which went dua pek gong pray pray again...

After praying...we went makan at selegie ...punggol nasi lemak..den he cont send mi home after pumpig petrol..

Sunday

Woke up ard 12pm plus...after which call him...He say feel tired and sick so cont slp till ard 3-4pm plus he called me and came to fetch me...Cos his aunt nid the car at 7pm..thus we went bek pasir ris first after which walked to white sands with ah sean...coz i got no money in my ez link card for take bus and we have no shingling!!

but it's a short walk so stil ok...

After reachin white sands, we continue take mrt to tampines...

Reached tampines le...they teman me go mini toons buy the cheap jigsaw puzzle...4 for 10 bucks...winnie the pooh and after which went popular to buy the boards for the puzzle...

Had linner @ billy bombers and lastly..helped my sister buy nintendo wii @ century square...

works by sensor...and the wii sports is fun enuff...

asked him to send mi home 1st coz i wana let my sis they faster set up so that my dad can play also...

he didnt come up my hse...waiting for his haircut..

Anyway...the games are so tiring...esp tennis and boxing..

oh ya..his sis came bek from bangkok and bought mi a sleeveless shirt and also this dam cute tortise...