Sunday, October 31, 2004
WhErE r U...
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Saturday, October 30, 2004
hate hate hate
i hate ppl who give false hope..
most imprtli..i hate ppl who toy with feelins...
n liars...f off...
Thursday, October 28, 2004
diagnostic of horoscope
*got this from gin blog...nth better to do..so diagnose it n see how true it is...=b...anywayz..these are diagnosed according to me..and doesnt apply to whole aries ppl^^
Diamond (Aries)
You like: Sincere people, freedom, being busy, laughing at silly jokes and scary movies (sometimes).Quite true?90% true...
You dislike: Gossip, moody mates, being taken for granted and you absolutely hate lies.erm..gossip is not dun like...is not that overboarddd...moody mates...hmm..yeah true..taken for granted...VERY TRUE...n the lies..DAM DAM TRUE.../pif
You're best at: Leading the pack as a leader, pushing yourself to the limit and making difficult decisions.Leading?erm..that one not sure but i dun tink so..haha..push myself to limit?ya...difficult decisions?BLEAHZ...i hate that..m i gd at that??*wonders
Deep down: U are just a sensitive softie with a lust for life 'n' love. U dream of having a gang of mates, a happy home environment 'n' wild holiday adventures.**secret...wahaha...=b..find out urself -___-"
Your career: Choose a job in publishing, entertaining or climb to the top as a company boss - anything where you're in charge of exciting and interesting projects.entertainin!!!i onli knoe i gd crabber...publishin?will ppl read!?!? o.O ya..exciting n interesting projects..^^
Fashion: Tight-fitting clothes in bright colours (red especially) look great on you - as do sporty-looking clothes or anything fashionably stripey. Fluffy, girlie clobber isn't your style at all.eee...tight fit..no thx...dun like dun like n dun like..
As a mate: A friendly an! d focused type, u want every1 to be happy. U can't stand dishonesty or people who talk behind ur back and won't be shy to mouth off at 'em if they do.wan everyone to be hapi..ya..haha..cant stand dishonesty all that...TRUE...~^^
As a girlfriend: U take the lead in a relationship, teasing ur boy wif passionate kisses 'n' behind-the-scenes butt squeezes. If he's worth hissalt 'n' wants to keep u, he'll return the favour with hot dates and plenty of pressies.lead lead lead?/hmm...mabbe -___-" not sure abt that la...haben been a ger fren b4..wahaha..if this relationship company employ mi as gerfren then say k?=b
If your boyf's an Aries: He lurves being in charge, so let 'im off once in a while 'n' pretend he is. Tell him how clever, capable 'n' cute he is 'n' he'll be eating out of ur hand. Mind the temper though - he's far from bootylicious when he's blowing his top. Play it cool till he's calm and then wait for him to say sorry. He must've been the one who was wrong, right?/hmmm
Celebrity Ariens:Jennifer Love Hewitt(21/3/79),Damon Albarn(23/3/68), Sarah Jessica Parker 25/3/65, Elton John (25/3/47), Mariah Carey (27/3/69), Chris Evans (1/4/! 66), Victoria Beckham (7/4/75) and Sarah Michelle Gellar (14/4/77).
kk...bek to reading..haben realli read til now...arghz..
ohayo~*
busy doin itp..wireless jam proposal..rest..dinner etcs these few days..
hows itp?wellz..its fine...cos first week ma...basically doin nothin but reading up...til i wanna slp in front of computer liow...
1st day-->lecture on grid + reading on parallel computing systems & network topologies
2nd day-->lecture on network storage + reading on grid
3rd day-->lecture on harddisk + reading on RAID
hmm..as u can see...i m a student..bleah..come here read n learn..
my supervisor is a guy n he told mi i m here to learn..so let mi knoe more...
let me see...he is quite gd la...stil gimme lecture..1 to 1 lor..teach mi how this work and blah...then tell mi no nid reach so earli..and can go bek a bit earli blah...and ya..he oso sign mi up for courses in nus(free la..if no attend must pay onli T.T) to let mi learn...
so overall i can say he is not bad ler...cos the other guy under the other supervisor..the supervisor jus ask him to read a 100+ pages of pdf abt grid...and leave him the installation of linux software...*phew..i no nid use linux..stil happili using windows..with the computer configured niceli for mi by my supervisor...^^
next wk gonna start on the tut for grid programmin..arghz...my supervisor say its almost the same as oop..using clses..and almost same as cp "structures" BLEAHZ..suxs suxs suxs..but anywayz..walk 1 step see one step ba..
this place is nice..enterin nid fingerprint...the bus will reach exactli at 6pm..n i m hardworking..writing the daily report of wad i do everyday...why?bcos hor...i too free liow..he gimme 8hrs to read over 10 pages of things onli...=b
hmm..i tink shld bek to work le..reading time again~!!
*yaWns~~
truth that are found out by ourself are more trustworthy^^
*anyone knoe how to make icon text colour background transparent?!!?pls tell miiiii!!*
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
liars suxs...
Monday, October 25, 2004
another promise to fulfillz
wadever le...n make sure i stick to this promise.../pif!
tml workin day..god bless mi~~
feel soooooo excited...yeah..like child so wad..i m not that old yet..i stil must be cheerful~
1st time workin not in a shoppin centre..new environment...keke..
but..i haben revise my java..kill mi pls..T.T
over n out~
a brand new js~
Sunday, October 24, 2004
konnichiwa
good afternoon...why am i here?well..cos nth better to do la..=.="
actualli i shldnt online in the afternoon 1...dun ask mi why..it jus seems like a habit to me already...it can saves mi few hrs of quarrellin..anyhow thinkin...pif
anywayz...yesterday was suxs...i tink today too...
promises are gd ..but they are hurting too...yep gina...u did once say this in ur blog...x100 times hurt...wellz..i encourage u bleaf that time...now i dun..haha...JS is fickleminded....
anywayzs...wellx..its goin to rain again...
i m not hapi.seriousli not hapi.i feel sucky now...everythin done is no long based on you wanna do it...but its based on promises...sighz..
i cant do anythin...can i?feel so small...feel so suxs...
but who cares...dun tink anyone does...
i jus wanna hab a gd n nice.....
fate wan play how long?or issit fake?
dunoz...i feel so sick...
Saturday, October 23, 2004
saturdayy
very tired.leg breaking.mind not ard.tinkin abt stuffs.
too mani questions in my head now.fears,worries,joys,sadness.
the crystal jade ramen..si chuan 1...eat much makes mi feel wanna vommit.
can someone ans all my qns?n tell mi the direction i m suppose to go now?
love n hate jus lies in one line...one thin line...
Friday, October 22, 2004
exams over...
bek to blog after these few days...
mws paper was nice...why?cos managed to memorise all qns and jus dump in all the ans...shld be able to get A...however..cp and mba..no idea...esp cp..can onli pray..
anywayz...after mws paper..was sitting in canteen 1 with ivy and jerry..04 n 05 ppl..wellz...ivy seems so angry ..n saying abt moving out...yapz...went to her blog jus now...i tink she's reali moving out soon...while jerry?still working day n nite as usual...sighz..
got woken up by his sms ard 641am today mornin i tink...ask mi whether he look worried when i saw him at the canteen that day...well..i replid him when i got woken up by the second sms...as u knoe la...i slpin...so i jus replied bek "No..." which is my true ans too..haha...
anywayz...so much things happenin to ppl all ard mi nowadays...is that part of growing up?fren moving out to stay on her own...fren working day n nite jus for money...fren who trouble over love...trouble over family...it makes mi feel that we shld treasure everythin ard us...n be more mature...
jerry gonna work during first week of itp?let mi recall his workin time...9am to 6pm then 11pm to 6am?isnt that a bit too much for a human?i asked him a qn...then u no nid acc ur gf?his ans was...sat n sun lor...but wunt he be so tired?bleahz...i duno...been a long time since i reali tok to him...
so wad abt me?hmm...yesterday someone asked mi a qn...wad kind of ger m i?wellx...i did tot abt it after that...but i cant come up with any suitable description abt mi...mabbe complicated?like quiet at times...and like noisy at times?guess i reali dun understd myself..
also..jus went to check my email..this is wad is forwarded to mi by Connie chan...
Dear Ms Connie,
This email is regards to the following attachment programme:
Institution: Ngee Ann PolytechnicProgramme
Type: Industrial Training Programme (ITP)
Period: 25 Oct 2004 - 4 Dec 2004 (6 weeks)
Students:Network Storage Technology (NST)
Division
1. Kua Yan Tseng, Nicholas
2. Toh Jing Shi
Here are some information for your knowledge:
1. Reporting time for students: 8.30 am
2. Reporting venue:DATA STORAGE INSTITUTE
DSI Building5, Engineering Drive 1(off Kent Ridge Crescent, NUS)
Singapore 1176083.
Attachment hours: Monday to Friday, 8.30am - 6.00pm (Lunch: 1 hr)
4. Students are not entitled to any paid leave.
5. Monthly allowance for students: S$420
6. Students required to submit
- Mid of Attachment (MoA) Progress Report
- End of Attachment (EoA) Report and Presentation
This EoA Presentation will take place in the afternoon on 3 Dec 2004, at
DSI building.We will brief the students on this on their first day.
7. For students attached to NST division, they will do their attachment at
DATA STORAGE INSTITUTE
20 Ayer Rajah Crescent#01-04 Technopreneur Centre
Singapore 139964
8. Students attached to other divisions will do their attachment at the
reporting venue.
well...presentation...a bit ...-____-"
and...i m landing up in that place again...thats the place i go for my that company interview that time...that place is..................very the.........abandoned!!...i scared dark T.T sighz..
and the bus ther ...dam slow?1/2 hour come once...sighz...
another thing...my wireless jam...i duno how to write the proposal...sighz...
pray hard to god ba...bleahz...
tml goin shoppinz...enjoyz...
Monday, October 18, 2004
Sunday, October 17, 2004
ViVa FoReVeR~*
Do you still remember
How we used to be
Feeling together, believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers
Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour, my spirit I gave ya
We'd only just begun
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine
[Chorus:]Viva forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, like the sun
Live forever,
For the moment
Ever searching for the one
Yes I still remember,
Every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I'd heard
Slipping through our fingers,
Like the sands of time Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine
[Chorus]Back where I belong now,
Was it just a dream
Feelings unfold, they will never be sold
And the secret's safe with me
Hasta Manana,
Always be mine [Chorus x2]
Saturday, October 16, 2004
/pif
yesterday friday went sch earli in the morning at 815?ya..reached ard that time..let me see...ms dear gin call mi at ard 615..n i slp ard 2++..means 4hrs plus of slp...however...i went bek to slp ard 645 then wake up..then bath...
n since gin say i wan make sandwich for so long also no make...so i make lor..spend less then 1hr making ...=b i m a Cook~ hahah..see...so li hai..use so less time make finish...~!
ok la...stop these self praising...anywayz...reached sch ard 815...walked ard lvl 4 library..finding project room..amazingli...onli one big big room was unoccupied...hmm...tinkin that later onli gin n me...the most jess also..so dun go in or go book...decided to check out lvl 5 n 3 first...went to lvl 5...walked the whole floor...well..saw one room with one big magazine bag...or duno which idiot's bag... at lvl 5...then forget it...cont find...saw one room unoccupied at lvl 5...tried opening the door...but it was locked!-_________-" spoil my happiness...
nvm...proceed to lvl 3....hopefully got room...BUT...go down aso no room...wth...Np ppl dam kiasu?..815 aso cannot find empty room..arghz...so decide to stop at lvl 4...choose a place outside 3 rooms...so can wait...so sit ther n wait...told myself wait til 9..cos mabbe ppl will hab exam n leave the room.well..theres this room with 2 txtbk on the table...2 fullscap...and 2 bags or 1 bag...n no ppl...a librarian on duty wanna collect mag from the rooms...then he saw this room..n start taking their things out...so i ask him whether can go in...he say ya..help him take out those things...so help lor...that is how i got a stupid room
=.="
ok..then wait gina come..so proceed with my studies first,...aso...wondering when the ppl will come bek n find their stuffs gone...but amazingli..til 6 plus..no human?..weird...
lets see...studied a bit onli...or rather..i was trying to use understding to study...yep..cprog...manage to understd some though..haha..but not yet all ba...it jus kill too much of my brain cellz...the past yr papers are crabs too..=.= nvm.../pif
den after an lin n jes left the room...studied a while more...go buy chocolates...=9..duno why ..but like to eat chocolates when studyin..brightens up my moodddd ^^
then stay straying...=.="
was tokin abt the future...abt whether to go overseas study..and abt a lot of issues concerning that..
was askin gin a qn...or rather a bet...on earthquake...actualli i wanna bet the same ans with u gin...=.="
then after that we went orchard.........eat long john...feel like vommiting on the trip there...car-dizzy they call it..bleahz...reach ther so accurate got seat...phew...so makan makan...as usual..gin buy lor..i sit lor..lala...usual ma...but the drink she brought bek contain duno wad inside -___-" trying to poisoon mi.../pif..jk..
after eating then cont walk...yeah..go taka..buy ice cream makan..so nice...=9 yogurt n cookies 'n cream...oishii ^^
then we go wisma lor..she wan take her lancome thing ma...then ..hmm..saw shawn n ida?.......i was standing ther...n find the ger a bit familiar...she call mi first lo...hmm...guess wad lor..its my JI fren...well...........................i dun realli remember.........so can onli say..."u change a lot"..=b..
after that i was tinkin again.....who is this ger..=.="
ok...cont tok to gin..n knoe more abt her...her name is call "yuan xiang"?hmm..this then ring a bell ba...at least i knoe is who..but she realli change a lot T.T
amazingli..she stil can recognise mi..i aso got change lor @#!@#
... ... ah..another thing we seeing was ... nowadays..it seems like more gers choose guys which are not too handsome...n if u dun agree with mi..pls hor...next time go out..point out few egs to me...cos tried this with gin..hahaha...quite hard to spot...
went bek home...i bath..n wondered shld i on9...finalli...i nvr...
if u ask mi the reason why...one of it is..i m tired...the other one...i tink those who knoe mi well enuff will knoe...
anywayz...wakie today PEACEFULLI...yap..noone woke mi up...hahaz...
means..suxs?=.=
a thought is inside mi from fri til now...
issit that when i m nided..den onli ppl will bother abt my presence...?
yesterday is a gd eg...wellx...
future is near...why is ppl keep avoidin it..and nvr tink of it...
i m taught that i shld plan for my future...
2 days left...my god...i didnt knoe that...arghz...
short of time..sighz...
Friday, October 15, 2004
SiAnx...
felt so dam sianx...and dam dam disappointed...
hmm...tink bek..mabbe thats y i m sooooo sianx...
yest which is wed?ya...someone made mi dam dulan...yeah..its dam dulan...
msg ppl..jus shoot mi bek with one sent..dam nice ba...bleahz..not gonna expand this incident though...
duno wad i m feelin now towards so mani things...sickenning..jus feel so !#@!@#
wad was that=.="
nid mi then find mi or treat mi nice...wad diff are u from the others..no diff k..
i hate...dam hate...
i reali hope i can play..yeah..play with everythin...so funz...
ya gin abt the qn u ask mi that day..which guy i like best...haha...or rather..like the most.......wellxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx...........
til now...stil no ans ba...
dun hoot mi...^^
i got so much to say..so much to tell..so much to scold..so much so much..but u'll nvr knoe...
mabbe being crabs is stil my occupation -___-"
everyone jus luv to listen mi crabs..n not wad i reali wanna say...bleahz...
can someone pls tell mi...if this sianxness continue...wad will happen?
its droppin...reali dropin...................arghz
why shld i care when noone care aso...BLEAHZ
bye byez bloggiee...next stage of life is approaching~...
Tuesday, October 12, 2004
eloz bloggie
firstly...was chattin with a fren of mine...this fren..my sec sch fren...i tink poly kinda hard to hab a bunch of fren who will always be with u no matter u rite or wron...wellz..he kinda got "played" by this ger...who gave him so much hope...and jus destroy all the hopes in one day...jus by one nice sentence of..." i tink from gd fren bcome couple is very weird..."....well...i can onli say...the ger is a bit too much ba..if dun like..why cant jus say?and wanna lead ppl blindli..and break their heart...?anywayz...a happi thin from here is that...i managed to chat with this fren of mine...n we are better now...why do i say so...cos last time i aso broke his hrt b4..=.=" and been a long time since i chat with him..or rather...dun reali chat with him always..so in this case...i earn myself a fren ba =)
secondli..from another fren..who had also been "played" by a ger...who her bf broke off with her..jus to be with another ger....This ger...find my fren..and less den 3 days...when her bf wan her bek...she broke off with my fren...n stil wan give false hope?my god...so like ppl kau....sometin proud my this fren had done is...to sms her ..not to contact him again...=) proud of him
one thing not very proud of him is he tinkin of kauing a ger in a long dist rs...!@#@!...somethin tat made mi sickening is that..the ger ans when my fren ask her..."if got better guy wad will u do"...her ans was..."will break up with her bf"...
her bf jus went to taiwan for less then 2 months..and ther she is..thinkin of breakin when a gd guy came...wellz...i scold a lot..and say so many thins to this fren of mine...=.=
he told mi he learned a lot from the previous ger..and that true luv dun exist...although i agree with him 1/2li..but i actualli told him that it do exist...and we'll see ba...
thirdly...been doin stuff these few days...got scolded by someone jus now...told mi abt my priorities..yep..if u reading this now..hf..paiseh ar..and thx aso..exams and helpin out...ya..i reali dun care abt my own things anymore...call mi stupid...i shld be studyin for my exams instead...afterall..i dun hab time left rite...but sigh..i cant.........
fourthly...email the nuh ppl...ya..a professor..in order to get the wireless jam idea goin...after all..my fyp depends on it too...tot professor wunt reply..but i was directli to a head in radiology diagnostic ..haha...so now waiting for replies again...^^
fifthly...recentli becoming more calm n coolz...why do i say so...i felt a change in myself...i dun reali hab much feelins left ..be it hapi..sad...angry or wadever...nahz...dunoz...
sixly...The msn is not working nowww...stil spoil..so lousy...suxs...
sevenli..alrite..its ok liow..
eightli..itp?duno wad will happen
ninely...anyone free after exam teman mi go somewher?
tenli...i m runnin out of time...
..............................................................................................can someone slow down the paceee?
is all my sacrifices worthwhile...is u worth it...i duno...but i had done wad i shld done...be it frens...gd frens..or more then frens...
ok..enuff bloggin..bek to work..................
Friday, October 08, 2004
disappointing day
feel kinda disappointed n sad now..not over our shoppin trip..over somethin else...bye blog
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
Monday, October 04, 2004
Work & works...stress & stress
morning: woke up ard 730 and slp ard 600 yesterday...(mite as well dun slp rite -___-" but too tired T.T)
was chattin with fren abt some memories of last time and aso figuring out how to use objectlist to make my application work...finalli it worked..but left the linkin part haben done..and those update statements and testing...
after wakie 730..very tired...realli so tired...eyes dam pain..but no choice..submission of TOR is 845..so drag myself to sch...took 2 envelope and put everything inside..one is gina's copy...one is mine....dun realli knoe wad to do n write on the front cover...did not print another extra cover page...so jus write name,supervisor and inside includes 2 TOR with cover =.=""
ICT lvl 8 dam crowded today...nid squeeze in and find the supervisor hole to drop the envelope in...so mani ppl and the lifts mostli went to 8th floor..so to come down using lift isnt much problem today...
after submission, went to PI cls...well...sit ther a while and go canteen eat first..when we come bek..the teacher let us take attendance and just tell us to do module survey..and everything ended=.=" 9 plus...next lesson 1pm ..well..went home...slp til ard 1145 den wakie...tot theres test on...so brought all my notes...but they ask teacher to postpone it..so end up we do practical instead...n my tut wasnt done up yet=.=
afternoon:after mws tutorial cls, went to cp cls...basicalli rot inside n listening to teacher tokin abt life...onli 6 students(including me) turned up for that lesson...teacher wad goin through test paper...and dead dead also dun wan give us the ans...zzz..wonder how to pass cp..guess thats a gd qn...nah..wait til study wk ba..
the cls ended ard 315++ cos a guy wan it to end and go to eat as he have test later at 4...which is the same as mi =.="
so teacher say wednesday continue...ZZZ...and so ...proceed to find gina they all in lvl 6...all were rather slpy...tink cos of the TOR that kill almost everyone yesterday...all heads on the table...except few surfing net...an lin was watching the HAPPY TREE FAMILY flash...well...wad flash was that...basically..bloody animal and digusting flash that were supposed to be entertaining and funny...however, jus dun find it funny...they show how the egg beater flew into the eyes of the animal and jus screw into the eye?also show how animal kill each other..=.="
well...time finalli up...so we proceed to the LT to hab our test...as usual ..PI test suxs...cos we nid to write write n write...kinda sianz...i dun actually know wad i writing...after writing the first time...i didnt bother to check the paper...jus hand up n go..sickening paper ba...waited outside for gin they all...wanted go eat..but i dun wan far..but nth to eat if not far...they wanted to go nydc..so i say jus go home lor...so i can slp..and they can go enjoy...=)
jus wake up some time ago..-_____-"
nite:later when finish up mba...hopefulli..and hope nth will go wrong in demo tml...tot of a way to demo tml..that is use the diagram i had drawn for tha basic flow...for my system...jus dam lazi must read from paper and explain the flow to everyone..=.="
wad time will i slp today...dun realli knoeee...hopefully everything will work..PleaSe???
ohya..on the way home..zhenquan called mi and say yong wei goin for the programming test...bleahz...hopefully he can pass it...cos honestly...i dun realli wan to go in that company...dun ask mi why...but........................................its stressed..........duno ba...sighz..tml ITP briefing...lets see wad the teacher say...*sighz*
bye bye bloggie...til we meet againz~*
"if he nvr even doubt mi ...why must i doubt him"<--someone told mi tis b4...haha..actualli quite true...but false too...why do i say so...tink ba
"if u trust someone...trust 100% and dun tink that he will lie u anything"<--stil trying hard on this pt...hopefulli be able to do it..
thats all~*
over and out
*Ren xian Qi - Ni Shi Wo De Lao Po*
Sunday, October 03, 2004
bek to blog...for now
anywayz..i m feelin so tired of myself..n everythin...i duno...if i shld bleaf wad i see..or bleaf wad i hear...tink i got to clearify my doubts..b4 my attitude happens againz...suxs...anywayz..been feelin down over this too...
Work left to be settled: MBA, MWS?,Weblogs?,ITP,wireless jam proposal...fyp...














