today is hmm...friday?
someone flew...one more flying soon..then another...
actualli true...no difference to me ba...they not reallife frens aso..but..stil a bit de sad one la..
anywayz...this afternoon tok to another fren...another liar....zzz..told mi mabbe goin study aso....zzz..4th one...-___-
seems like studyin can kill time...
1 month left for fyp...n wireless jam...i wunt go crazy gina..dun wori...
anywayz thx 2 jes card dat these few days can so hapi...
yesterday i got to knoe somethin..thx 4 "shelterin" or tryin to minimise the hurt of the truth for mi...u knoe who u r...but it didnt work stil after i knoe it...
was tokin to my mother in the afternoon.yep..no listen wrongli...was sayin abt frens...she could tell mi "frens?they nvr stab u at the bek gd ledi" duno abt tat...
duno...jus knoe...i dun feel like bloggin anymore...mabbe will jus leave it til duno when..got mood then blog...duno...not sure...
-over n out-

*P.S. this post is not written to aim at anybody...jus writing wad my mother told mi n wad i feel...so dun get offend..thx

sgHz... ...

recentli things are gettin sadder n sadder...everyone seems to be leaving..either to other countries..or to holidays...leaving n leaving...more n more distance...gettin a sadder n scarier feelin...
the dreams i had didnt help mi at all..it added on to this sadness...even slpin i cant get a abit of happiness...
and i reali lost myself...totalli lost my sense of directions as to wher i wanna go..wad i tinkin...and i reali have no idea who m i..
is that call tired?i duno...i knoe a lot of ppl stil care for this little life of mine..even though how bad i had treated them b4...n i reali v grateful to them..but i totalli duno who m i now...n ya..noone else can help mi except myself...
hab u ever wonder...how true this sentence is?-->actions speak louder than words
i jus realise..its not true...not totalli true at all...
few more things...lucky stars...it was bleafed tat u fold them to be lucky...but u knoe...its proven wrong again...it isnt lucky at all
cranes?1000 cranes for a wish...this one mabbe not many hear b4...but can go try surf ard...but tell u again...it doesnt grant a wish..i folded ard 5k plus(plus n minus including those i give ppl)...i duno whether their wish come true...but for mi..it didnt...
dreamcatcher?the picture which i posted previousli...it is bleafed to capture bad dreams in the web...n thus give gd dreams...i hang that by the window for so mani yrs...but recentli..it prove mi wrong...n y onli recentli?cos i jus re-realised its existence...
so wad else can i bleaf in?
every bleaf gives ppl hope...but til now..i dun tink thers any hope ...
and ya..i shldnt be bloggin real feelins in a blog...cos i aso duno wad i feelin everyday..every min...every moment...
but dun wori..i m stil tryin to be strong...to be hapi everyday...while floodin myself with other tots...n other stuffs...jus that recentli i realli cant tahan ...the feelin of everyone leaving suxs...be it temporary or permanent..
i miss my jie jie T.T sghz...

bek to blog...nahz..wanted to post pic yesterday..but due to laziness..+ tireness + no moodness + mani mani more...so nvr post lo..hoho..anywayz..now post for yest or rather..sat things...
and o ya..thx jes for teachin mi blog n post pic this way ^^

wellz...i post my beautiful finger first..=b..
so pain..cos of that staplet..arghz...


or rather..b4 that..went bugis the "the coffee connection"
last time always go ther with winnie 1..ya..drink drink tok tok eat eat...BUT...i reali forgot wad i eat b4 in that shop..-___-"
anywayz..see this nice nice latte..


thats b4 i stir...after that..it bcame a bloody drink which looks digusting...like my most hatred tomato juice.... !#@!


and yeah..the display of nail colors...*p.s:not my finger...=.="


-end-

Monday
went sch for meet old man...get pda...instead of 1..i got 2 now..zzz..but forgot how to make it connect to internet...bleahz...T.T
then go the fyp briefing..after which go nydc eat...in which i jus drink their water...cos cant find somethin i wan eat...
this drink hor..not nicer than my above one...zzz


ok..next is wanted to eat curry rice..but hor...they mop floor ledi..too badddd
so decided go eat kenny roger...my god..big discovery..the chicken very fit ther...so much meat -___-

came home..found my precious results slip..means 3 bucks saved!!!but i stil lack one sem result slip..arghz..3 bucks prepare to gone...mabbe later find again..
anywayz...i wonder how mani knoe wads this...


mabbe blog on it when i hab more mood all that...for now..over n out~

*yawns...goin slp soon..dam lazi update...so jus a brief one

Saturday-->Ro carnival...T.T
went to the austrailian uni open hse thingy..but suxs..melbourne not ther...!@#@!#.. n realise another thing..my results suxs...however theres stil a few nice uni at the fair..dam lots of ppl..and ya..dam suxs...aunty nowadays..haiz..dunno how to queue up..nvm abt that..the fair too mani ppl ba...suxs...after that shoppin again..yeah...actualli is collect photo lar...i luv to collect photo..zzz...
den went shoppin or wadever u call it la...erm..here hab a few qn to ask those who always make up...erm..u all knoe lip gloss got those like mascara pattern type of packagin one?does eye shadow hab that kind of packagin nowadays?
anywayz...reach home late..cos ya..went one shop again..no nid say wad shop la...u all knoe 1...hoho...beginnin to luv bugis...=b..oya..i hate bum shop...cos it poke my fingers...not the bum shop poke..but the staplet...shop condemmed

Sunday
wake up earli wanted to hand in my application for the australian uni thing...but hor........they say my results slip must get mailto:stamped...!@#@! gotto ask stupid np to stamp..i slpt ard 4 plus yest n wake up ard 11 plus..my god...dam earli..n i lack slp...currentli is v tired..
tml then post pic ba...too no mood..suxs

Mass Update...

elox everyone..bek to blog...yep...hmm...b4 i start bloggin..can someone do a gd deed n help mi change blogskin?!?!dam tired n lazy to change...n also...no reali nice skins ard...or rather..i dun hab the mood to browse through each of them..bleahz...

ok...so now jus update on the happenings of this wk...let me tink...
Tuesday
well well well...wad did i do today...?erm...o ya...went sch do final yr project with gin...hmmm..miss atrium at nite...realli so peacefullll...stupid jessica went off ard 6pm plus..ya...lazy her..lazi pig...dun bring laptop do fyp la...wan hand write la...end up slpin on the table...zzz...
anywayz...stay ther til quite late cos nid do the screenshots..got a big shockkkkk..cos almost cant run my emulator...zzz...or rather...forget how to run...that stupid http://wishin/MbaAsg/login.aspx yep.. this... path name...put here in case i forgot again...but in the end ma...managed to do up all the screenshots...although some reali no logic one...dun care...cos nid hand up soon...then saw honkie in sch aso..at nite pass by us..so auto will say "eh" to him...thats the normal reaction rite...then as usual..he lame ...use "b" to ans bek...Zzzz...n the hongs also ther with him..both stil as crappy as b4...zzz...
after they left...gin say hungry...so suggest go makan lor...yeah...since ledi 10 plus...we go clementi lor...wanted to save money by eatin kfc..but hor...kfc dun wan earn my money...close so earli...so went mac instead...makan n makan..den gin say one qn..."later no bus go home then high..i left 2 dollar" ....didnt realise tat wad she say quite true...11 plus ledi ma...crabs...so eat faster lor...then go home lor...reach home ard 12 plus...surprisingli...noone scold mi for home late...or rather...noone even knoe i came home..zzz...everyone was slpin...even that lucky...
hmmm...after takin a bath...went online to wait for ms tang...cos wan play game together...then we play game til 3-4plus...suxs lor...dam tired bth liow..so i go slp first...
that game so cheat...i use my character which is born in channel 3...she create hers in channel 2...i can pm her...she cannot pm mi...we in the same map..but cannot see each other...wth...but nvm...jus grumbling ...nth much for this day ledi...

Wednesday
went to sch for a stupid security seminar...a talk that lasted 3 hrs...tokin abt national service n national service n national service...bleahz...dam tired cos previous day slp a while onli..then the stupid tok is on at ard 1230...ya i noe very late ledi...but to me stil earli la...4am slp..til 1045 nid wake up lor...i m pig lor..so i nid more than that amount of slp..*sigh..hard to be a pig nowadays...bleahz...
ok continue...wanted to do wireless jam thing after the talk but end up no contact and noone say anythin..so noone do...ops...forgot ..i shld elaborate abt the talk n wad happen inside.../pif...ok...the talk is abt national service...................guys nid go do national service lor..then every ppl must attend lor...all yr 3 occupy so much of the convention hall seats...n listen them tok tok tok...bleahz...they show wad the guys go through in ns blah...how shld GF be MORE considerate towards them(crabs)...why i say crabs...cos i reali dun hab gd impression of NS guys treatin their gf...it seems like every guy that go in NS will change...yep they change..thats a fact...but towards bad or gd...noone knoes...bleahz..suan le..duno wad i tokin..
when they tokin abt total defence...the 5 defences..i was reminded abt the cheer leading session in secondary sch during guides time..haha...so fun...memorable..okok..enuff of these crabs..cont...
since we didnt realli listen to the talk...so wad are we doin?basically asking ppl to be more "on"..to go for prom nite...yep...last yr ledi!!stil..hard to ask them go..so sianx n sick of askin...all will say see how see how...
ok............now is after the talk..........................................
after tha talk...dam suxs la...walkin to the bus stop...then realise nvr top up my ez link...so must find coins la..den waited at bus stop for 61 lor...then ms tang call mi go out cos her dear dear goin gamin n she dun wan go lor...so teman her ...wanted to go bugis..but halfway thr..head a bit sot ba..head bek to ginza plaza...for wad?-->game<-- ya i admit i crazy...gin aso ask mi whether head got prob a not..bleahz...but seriousli..shld be got ba..zzz
anywayz..went to eat kfc...that stupid meal which consist of such a BIG burger...*yawns...made a big discovery...ginza have nothin to shop..except LAN shops...-______-" and a lot ah bengs ah lians..or rather those act bengs act lians?god knoes..
after which was sayin wanted to go bowlin..hahah..yep..long time no bowl..but ............too bad.........sg bowlin centre left how mani?not mani ba..T.T cannot from clementi travel to bt panjang ba..so we settle for pool instead...went to play at clementi...ya..we played an hour...for ard 3 rounds of game...wahaha...cannot blame..aimin dam suxs...so no win no lose...play til kurt come then i b lightbulb go makan with them n kurt fren lo...
noticed another thing...all the way i eatin............................the topics that are talked.............are games games n games...omg...now then i noe...
after eatin go bek pool again...cos gin wan play..then i sit ther watch they 2 play lor..be lightbulb..yeahhhh...but i jus dun wan go home earli la..so...sori lor gin =b
while watchin them play...xiaoai call lor..decided to go her hse pass her cd lor...dun ask mi why..told ya cos i sot ledi..the time is ard 9 plus at that time...n i knoe i will be dam late home.....but i stil go...thats not mi rite?yep..
anywayz...after finish their pool..gin wan play arcade...so i go off first lor...erm...another interesting thing happen..i was at the bus stop...when a stupid guy come n ask mi phone?zzzzzzz
why issit that in this century this kind of thin will stil happen..?i tot it will onli happen in secondary n mabbe younger age...bleahz...wads more...i wearing a stupid tee shirt n 3/4 pants...ya...anyhow wear...dam anyhow..n i m not chio ok......-__-"
anywayz...got on the bus..realise on the same bus with him n his another fren..*faint...
then i msg gin...she so cute..
me:wei..jiu ming ar
her:u saw ghost ar
me:...u sot ar...so earli wher got ghost see
then she call mi n her first sentence is "i call u save u the best hor"
haha..gin ar...u reali very cute...hahahahah
den i sit the bus til the interchange...my god..same as them aso.......zzzzzzz
walked as fast as possible lor...n i walk outer route lor...den ma...lucky i walk fast../pif
den reach home ledi...another surprising thing happen lor...so eventful day .........my sister told mi she saw ledi..i ask her wad..she keep dun wan say...then i guess aso knoe lor..those photos lor...then my mother aso come in my room n say those photo nice all that..bleahz...the most surprising thing is............they didnt scold mi......phew...
den after bath..went to find xiaoai lor...den receive jerry sms say wan do wj thing on thur...so settled on thur lor...anywayz..went xiaoai hse ard 10 plus..yar...i m crazy...i reach ther ard 11 plus...actualli planned to reach home ard 12...or b4 that...but amazingli..i reali dun feel wan at home..so i stayed at her hse til 1 plus...tok tok lor...den take cab home...another big discovery...midnite cabs are dam ex...and from cck to bb...7.50...so ex..........for so near distance...now i noe why jessica u dun wan go clubbin n go home alone for midnite cabs.....
reached home ard 2 plus..hab a bath and wanted to on9..but tink twice..i m tired...n on9 aso no use..mite as well go slp..so i went slp after that...another amazing thing...noone scolded mi for being home late again

Thursday
went sch do wireless jam thing...meet 11 in sch 1..but end up all reach so late...jerry fly my aeroplane...cannot blame him too...keep work work n work ma...10pm to 7am..wher enuff slp la...but gd money though..den honkie reach ard 1145.....then do the wj thing lor...stupid erd again...was unclear abt a part of the receptionist..but in the end he nid go do his fyp at egarage ledi..so i alone lor..cos jerry sms say he on his way...so wait wait wait til 2-3 plus..i call him...he no reply...means..............he fell aslp again..so i go home lor...yap..n i slp aso -___-
too tired ba....
nite time wake up...wanted to do my jap essay for that speech contest...but end up strayin...yeah..very strayed...but in the end..managed to get bek SOME of my mood..
too mani things nid to b done...
1.jap essay
2.taxes test
3.jap test
all in one day.......sighz...but in the end...didnt reali go bother my jap test..

Friday
today another suxs day...earli in the mornin go sch for taxes...*yawns...dam tired....cos previous day 3-4am then slp...then wake up ard 845...got test ya...so go cls do test...got a feelin of kana cheated when the test was actualli MCQ...zzz to tink i go memorise how to do balance sheet...those SI,AI,CI...this is reali crab lor...n i didnt study the topic abt personal reliefs...zzz...forgot it ba..suxs..
after which lunch at SIM...eating a pasta nid mi to queue up 30++ mins for it...saw hweeling ther...stil the same ba her...after SIM eat finish...go cls again lor..wad else...sigh** go Online Communication Campaign cls...got a shock..i go in cls...all ppl have laptop on the table..ZZZ.....cos today got online quiz -______-
ivy ask mi go borrow from desmond..so borrow from him..n start doin that stupid quiz that lasted for 45mins...30MCQs which u can keep try n try...i tried more than 5 times...so dulan...1st time get 22/30...second time 23/30..third time 20/30..forth time 22/30...5th time...22/30...6th time aso same...so i dam dulan dun wan try ledi..jus give my marks.......the teacher stil tell mi..u keep stuck at 22 hor..-___-" the qns are all the same la..but how i knoe which one i wrong?!?!crabs..
after occ..went to WISP cls lor...sianx ba...dam sianx so see gin hp n play with it lor...nth to do aso..see her photo lor...nah..that cls not much to say la..too sianx..keep teach abt world issue...who will be our possible "attackers"..bleahz..actualli its alrite la..but 3-5 liow..who got the mood!??!
after which jes n gin go orchard n i stil stuck in sch..arghz...went lib study 1 hr...ya..u nvr see wrong..i STUDIED...for my jap test la...den drag myself to that cls...today lesson abt personality lor...
watashiwa shinsetsu desu..(I am helpful) all these lor...then cos too sianx..n teacher was askin us to say wad we tink of our fren...so when my fren ask..
boku wa donna seigakuda do omoumasuka?(wad u tink of mi?)
i jus ans him bek...i dun wan let lightning struck...instead of answering bek
yasashii do omoimasu..(i tink u are kind)
cannot blame us..too sianx ledi...
den after that had a "briefing" session for the make up clses for jap...dam it...every wk add 1 hr...i wan faint liow...i m a typical 12 hrs in sch student...
10 til 9......!#@!#@!
i hate fridays......

anyone got nice topic for a 5 mins presentation and a nice skin for my blog..pls let mi knoe..ur help will be appreciated...
*note to jes: how can u throw gin alone...aiiiii

-over n out...long post...dun kill mi...jus a mass update..so tired now..goin slp soon..tml nid go see autralian open hse n go take my big big photo again...means wake up earli n all that....but nvm..the more tired the more gd ba...

HaPPy NeW yEaR!!!

its the 2nd day of 2005 now..keke...didnt hab much activities on the 1st day..yep..didnt go for the countdown blah...stayed at home...onli went to collect my makeover photo with hf..after which we run home...scared of crowd...very concidentalli...met mag mag..berdine..and peiling on the mrt platform..long time no seee..all stil the same as last time..so cheerful ^^

went je kfc makan after that...dam crowded..cos of the jurong JRC ther countdown..anywayz..all the countdown was toned down..due to the tsunami thing...and this affected some of the events...the sentosa party stil goes on..however no broadcast...tink is cos of the ticketing thing...esplanade fireworks display was cancelled...yep...i tink they did rite ..imagine ppl dying every minute at the india ther...and u puting fireworks to celebrate?!?!... a bit the...er..."ze e"

new yr new wish...was tokin with fren..abt resolution...and we were "debating" abt ger guy behaviour...haha...been a long time since i debate this issue with the same person =b..tok to cf abt new yr wish too...n he say he will pray for mi for my wish come true..^^

anywayz..few days ago..went to see my old diary..the one i used to write ...n i got a big shock!!!..thers onli 2 entries for the year 2004...OMG...i tink combine with my another diary..and my blog...shld be enuf?/hmm...n the first entry is dam short?3 sentences...omg...

okie..now for new year resolutions...
1.get my diploma...
2.plan for my future...
3.cultivate patience...
4.earn $$$
5.live like a normal person...means..less internet!!
6.a trip to kl?(stil considering ^^)
7.treat my frens better...(those that are worth it ^^)
8.love myself!!!
9.b hardworkin????(i doubt i will...bleahz)

-tats all le...-
*memories are somethin...noone can take away from ya...*