Currently now in office, suppose to get the stupid abstract/proposal submission form to work...but alex still not yet back ...probably still at arcade playing that san guo zhi 2 card game...Anyway, just feel like blogging thus here's the post...
For a start, i really wanted to blog this post happili, but guess i can't coz just few mins/hr ago, someone gave me a last minute "surprise" again.haix..nvm abt tat...i'll juz cont...
On 30th August 2007, went IMM with him.For wad..i no longer remember...maybe juz walk walk coz once again, I was being asked the same question "Where you want to go?", and also, maybe i was finding somewhere near so that he wunt be so tired...but well...these are stuffs that he'll nvr understd and know..or appreciate..
He bought this RO figurine for me at comic connections...cute and i like coz its RO mah...den wanted to find the display case for it...so went Diaso...but unfortunately i bought the wrong one with steps...the figurine too big to go in...haix...but well...i saw my colleague, yin jie there with her husband to be...small world..
Halfway through the shopping or walk walk..he went outside to find seat and i was there shoppin by myself when i meet yj..
I duno, all of the sudden i felt so alone.Wads the point of fetchin me and driving me here to shop by myself?my brain are filled with all these stuffs while shoppin alone...but well again, he nvr know.
He come find me when he cant find a seat outside .Then brought mi to the spects there and start trying them on and take photo =.= .Anyway after which went home i think...
Saturday 1st September 2007
Went celebrate jason birthday with the usual university gang which includes big and small alvin, zen, jason,wai wai, alfred, mingli, xin min, justina, me and dap.not sure who i missed out but roughly these ppl bah...
went steamboat @ seah st @ bugis den went shenton ktv.
Sunday 9th September 2007
Didnt meet him today coz he wake up no car come find mi and ledi so late, which is ard 4pm?Went to have hair cut at westmall and perm by myself.Day before went out with alfred, jason, xm and dap to bt timah to have supper.He didnt meet mi coz he was having those company "jia to" at loyang.
He did call me up, but after like few sentences, he got nth else to say and we hang up.He didnt even bother abt what happen to me the whole day, which area of bt timah i go to etc.He didnt slp earli coz he went to fetch his dad from airport.I duno if he sms me at 2 plus is coz he haven slp (coz fetch dad) or he specialli waited for me home.I choose to believe the 1st reason, reason being:Hope too high will disappointment higher.But well, i didnt ask him and he duno abt all these too.
Sunday nite we have a quarrel...ya..no hear wrong...he quarrelled again.This time really made me feel so dam sad and disappointed with him.I smsed ah boy a msg askin him to take care of him..coz i feel that i m onli giving him stress , letting him very stress.I duno if ah boy received it coz there was no replies but this goes to show how helpless and how sad i am.I am realli ready to let go anytime.
Monday he woke up by himself.Coz he goin for reservice.A thought just pop into my mind.I feel so useless as a GF.A ns reservice can make him auto wake, but not a gf.Instead a gf had to wake up earli to wake him up to fetch her.This goes to show how important i am to him.After work he came to fetch me.It is only then that he knew i perm n cut my hair.and he's my bf.
Anyway he proceeded to ask mi the same question, "Where you wan to go".It always end up with the same answer.I m so tired of thinkin.So pek check of hearing this qn.So sick n tired of all these.But he nvr knew.
Ended up going Harbourfront coz he meeting his dad to buy tv for his sis.First time in my life i saw how his dad care for him.Was quite stunt.And for the 1st time, I felt tat his dad is a very gd man.He treated us eat at a nonya restaurant at Vivocity with the bill coming up to ard 140 for 3 pax...and while ordering the list of food, he's always asking me what i want to eat den he order.And while eating, he keep put food on my plate.
After having our dinner, we went to have ice cream.Decided to go haagen daaz coz i got 10 voucher and his dad likes the ice cream there(he say 1).Upon siting, the waiter came and gave us the menu.Then he continue place a phamplet in front of mi, telling me about the mooncake they selling now and the prices etc.After the waiter introduce finish and walked away, his dad asked what was it about.Thus i told him briefly they saying abt their mooncake.The next sentence stunted me.His dad then ask me "you wan a not?I buy for u".still recovering from the shock, i quickly reply say no nid uncle, very expensive.
Tuesday 11 Septemeber 2007
Woke him up coz scared he cant wake up.Den went working as usual.He came fetch me after that.As usual those qns again.I told him i got no where to go + dun feel like eating.He told me the same.After which then he say go IMM lor.Seeing him so tired + IMM so big later he shop more tired, so i suggested go Liang court.Since there got audio house can see tv...and also new place mah.Halfway there, seeing the jam, out of concern i told him why not we dun go liang court le...we go ur hse lor.I was being said by him for being ren xin.How shld i feel i duno.Felt like the biggest fool, but once again I kept silence.And throughout the car trip, we were both like silent.He dun give or make an effort to even tok to me.I tok to him when i was on car, for like 5 to 10mins, like tokin to a wall.without much replies and much concern from him.den i kept silence.
Wednesday today
he told mi yesterday he will fetch me to Ritz Carlton for jason grad.But after i confirm with alfred he nid not come pick me up, he said he on mc cannot leave house so no fetch me.