Wednesday, October 31, 2007

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Monday, October 22, 2007

Friday

Went Tony Romans @ Suntec to have dinner as his younger sister having birthday there.
Just a normal dinner...treated by his dad. Total number of ppl who went was ard 17 including all the uncles, aunties,siblings, and what you call family members.

It's quite a record, considering we didnt meet from Monday to Thursday, and for Friday, we actually met up for that pathetic few hours, not alone, but with people around...even when driving me home. Don't get me wrong. I am not against being with his family members or friends.Maybe it's just that out of 5 working days, i only wanted 1 day, but he can't even give me.Total bill came up to around 770++ bucks. Still alright, considered that it's 17 people's share.

Saturday
Ended up in quarreling again.Coz he sms me promised to meet ard 2:30. but he called me up at 3:30, stating he's still at home and he will come over soon. Was disappointed. I asked him, "u dun feel guilty at all?". He's not. When ask me where i want to go, i already told him, i got no place to go the previous day, but he still ask me when i ans him this ans again.

When hang up, I was so disappointed and dulan that i sms him , think dun meet le lah.u say meet 230 now already 330, u not guilty at all plus i no place to go. He didnt sms back till a while later...asking if i want go dinner with him and boy later at msia.Ha..

Quarrel and quarrel.Sianx...Night time spent 3 hrs plus to east side to find him.But he's outside with his friend drinking.I need to ask him to meet me to settle our stuffs.I dun understand really.

Sunday
Took cab down. Another disappointing day.My hunger doesnt seems to affect him.Though I am hungry, he can say let him lie down a while and rest a while.

I got to meet my dearest brother, WXB aka NOOB at downtown east today too.haha... but while we were goin off, he walk next to him, leaving mi behind.so disappointing.but he duno.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Halox world...back to blog a bit..
Yesterday just had a gd chat with my bro (game bro)...
Been so long really, since i updated with his news...Remember last time when we are still both gaming in WMO, we shared stuffs together..i mean problems...and as a bro, he realli took care of me when ppl bully me in game ><
Other than that, we also got chat on phone.The only thing is , ya i didnt see him b4...
And if not for him, i wunt meet "him" also ba.
He actualli chatted with me til ard 4:41am...coz i cant slp aso...n he givin mi advice..
We talked abt karma...yah...came to this conclusion...shld be karma...
i dunno how 2 cont blog...i woke up, with some hope of he fetchin mi to work today coz he told mi tat yesterday.called him.
"I no fetch u go work.i not goin work today coz yest nite after dinner i sprain my leg..my legiment there..swollen"
i was awake til 4:41am +++ n i duno anythin abt it.
"sry no tell u"



Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Mood : A bit disappointed...a bit sad...a bit of everything...





Currently now in office, suppose to get the stupid abstract/proposal submission form to work...but alex still not yet back ...probably still at arcade playing that san guo zhi 2 card game...Anyway, just feel like blogging thus here's the post...





For a start, i really wanted to blog this post happili, but guess i can't coz just few mins/hr ago, someone gave me a last minute "surprise" again.haix..nvm abt tat...i'll juz cont...





On 30th August 2007, went IMM with him.For wad..i no longer remember...maybe juz walk walk coz once again, I was being asked the same question "Where you want to go?", and also, maybe i was finding somewhere near so that he wunt be so tired...but well...these are stuffs that he'll nvr understd and know..or appreciate..





He bought this RO figurine for me at comic connections...cute and i like coz its RO mah...den wanted to find the display case for it...so went Diaso...but unfortunately i bought the wrong one with steps...the figurine too big to go in...haix...but well...i saw my colleague, yin jie there with her husband to be...small world..


Halfway through the shopping or walk walk..he went outside to find seat and i was there shoppin by myself when i meet yj..


I duno, all of the sudden i felt so alone.Wads the point of fetchin me and driving me here to shop by myself?my brain are filled with all these stuffs while shoppin alone...but well again, he nvr know.


He come find me when he cant find a seat outside .Then brought mi to the spects there and start trying them on and take photo =.= .Anyway after which went home i think...





Saturday 1st September 2007


Went celebrate jason birthday with the usual university gang which includes big and small alvin, zen, jason,wai wai, alfred, mingli, xin min, justina, me and dap.not sure who i missed out but roughly these ppl bah...


went steamboat @ seah st @ bugis den went shenton ktv.




Sunday 9th September 2007

Didnt meet him today coz he wake up no car come find mi and ledi so late, which is ard 4pm?Went to have hair cut at westmall and perm by myself.Day before went out with alfred, jason, xm and dap to bt timah to have supper.He didnt meet mi coz he was having those company "jia to" at loyang.

He did call me up, but after like few sentences, he got nth else to say and we hang up.He didnt even bother abt what happen to me the whole day, which area of bt timah i go to etc.He didnt slp earli coz he went to fetch his dad from airport.I duno if he sms me at 2 plus is coz he haven slp (coz fetch dad) or he specialli waited for me home.I choose to believe the 1st reason, reason being:Hope too high will disappointment higher.But well, i didnt ask him and he duno abt all these too.

Sunday nite we have a quarrel...ya..no hear wrong...he quarrelled again.This time really made me feel so dam sad and disappointed with him.I smsed ah boy a msg askin him to take care of him..coz i feel that i m onli giving him stress , letting him very stress.I duno if ah boy received it coz there was no replies but this goes to show how helpless and how sad i am.I am realli ready to let go anytime.

Monday he woke up by himself.Coz he goin for reservice.A thought just pop into my mind.I feel so useless as a GF.A ns reservice can make him auto wake, but not a gf.Instead a gf had to wake up earli to wake him up to fetch her.This goes to show how important i am to him.After work he came to fetch me.It is only then that he knew i perm n cut my hair.and he's my bf.

Anyway he proceeded to ask mi the same question, "Where you wan to go".It always end up with the same answer.I m so tired of thinkin.So pek check of hearing this qn.So sick n tired of all these.But he nvr knew.

Ended up going Harbourfront coz he meeting his dad to buy tv for his sis.First time in my life i saw how his dad care for him.Was quite stunt.And for the 1st time, I felt tat his dad is a very gd man.He treated us eat at a nonya restaurant at Vivocity with the bill coming up to ard 140 for 3 pax...and while ordering the list of food, he's always asking me what i want to eat den he order.And while eating, he keep put food on my plate.

After having our dinner, we went to have ice cream.Decided to go haagen daaz coz i got 10 voucher and his dad likes the ice cream there(he say 1).Upon siting, the waiter came and gave us the menu.Then he continue place a phamplet in front of mi, telling me about the mooncake they selling now and the prices etc.After the waiter introduce finish and walked away, his dad asked what was it about.Thus i told him briefly they saying abt their mooncake.The next sentence stunted me.His dad then ask me "you wan a not?I buy for u".still recovering from the shock, i quickly reply say no nid uncle, very expensive.

Tuesday 11 Septemeber 2007

Woke him up coz scared he cant wake up.Den went working as usual.He came fetch me after that.As usual those qns again.I told him i got no where to go + dun feel like eating.He told me the same.After which then he say go IMM lor.Seeing him so tired + IMM so big later he shop more tired, so i suggested go Liang court.Since there got audio house can see tv...and also new place mah.Halfway there, seeing the jam, out of concern i told him why not we dun go liang court le...we go ur hse lor.I was being said by him for being ren xin.How shld i feel i duno.Felt like the biggest fool, but once again I kept silence.And throughout the car trip, we were both like silent.He dun give or make an effort to even tok to me.I tok to him when i was on car, for like 5 to 10mins, like tokin to a wall.without much replies and much concern from him.den i kept silence.

Wednesday today

he told mi yesterday he will fetch me to Ritz Carlton for jason grad.But after i confirm with alfred he nid not come pick me up, he said he on mc cannot leave house so no fetch me.






Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Hello world...
Been sometime since i came to update on my happenings and rants..

Life is still going on as usual...it always is...never stopping for anyone...

Went hospital with my mom and dad on Monday..it is only then i came to realise..mount elizabeth really charge dam high for the ward and treatment...and the ward isnt all as peaceful as it seems..services too..wasnt as excellent as it claimed.
We can actually spend more than 10minutes waiting for a pillow and when we ask the nurse wheres the pillow..., she can took it out from a cupboard nearby...
The person still tell us he will get for us a pillow.and he disappeared.
It is aso only then that i realised how much pain there is for the treatment..and how much courage is required.
thanx to him..for fetchin me n jie fu n jie n lucky back home after a full day @ hospital with my dad.I know he's tired...

Yesterday, Tuesday, he was down with throat pain and tiredness i think...went home ard in the afternoon..he even offered to let me drive his car...but too bad i m still unconfident of myself plus i duno how to park...thus didnt take the car from him.

Went to find him after work...took the transport to tampines..after which mrt to pasir ris and bus to his hse..bought ju hua cha and barley for him coz he's quite heaty...and bought ard 7 doughnuts..with the thought of giving his family eat...but all ended up in his fridge.
n 2 with me

proceed home ard 1045 with his mom...coz she wanted to take disc from her parents in law there..after which we went to selegie there to have teochew porridge...one fish tail..one vege...one pork..one lala...one salted egg..2 rice n 1 porridge and 1 coke...total up ard 25.50...and its not that big plate aso.....her mom treat..den after which walk over to buy douhua..but douhua was out of stock le..too late + sell finish ..thus settle for a grass jelly drink..
On the car, her mom was telling him when her operation is and askin him to fetch her...after which..she continues...call her elder sis out together aso..when we go shopping or watch movie blah...coz scared she will anyhow think and her fren like 2 only.wellx...not that i dun wan ask her out or wad...but ...we dun even have sometime for ourselves.....but again...wad can i say..i can onli keep quiet.
it's like askin elder sister out for shoppin, watch movie...askin younger sister out ktv coz she aso very cham...very tied down...den fetchin elder bro back coz area that area...fetchin mom back from work...helpin auntie with groceries...wellx...so where's our own time?
noone say that i very cham also?
I know..his family are all gd...all of them gd to me too...i m not complaining abt helping them or wad...wad i m askin for, probably, is just some free time to ourselves...not a single day i can go out with him full for 1 day..alone me n him..happili..its either there's errands to run, or his face will be so tired and his face will be so sianx and we'll be walkin without talkin.
i duno how long will this continue..
21st Aug, 22nd Aug or anywhere near these dates...are the days where i feel dam insecure...bcos its his ex birthday.I've been wondering if he will be meeting his ex or sending her sms or even callin her...I duno..i'm afraid to ask.I'm scared its true and i will end up hurting myself.
So now i can only think and think.
Sighx.so tired.feel like slpin...
Update next time..
-wishin-

Friday, August 03, 2007

Been quite a long time since i come to do any updates on my life...happenings and etc...
A lot of stuffs actually happened these few weeks and months...






Let me recall...Jason have been back from Australia and we all met up to have a simple dinner @ cathay ...people present were :Dap,Mingli,Wai wai,Justina, me, Alfred, Jason.


The feeling is so nice...as though everyone is back to chat...catching up with each other after we parted off at Australia after our studies...Jason hasnt change much , still himself..As for me n him...things are gettin from bad to worst...we can be quarrelin at a frequency of like 2 days once or worst, 1 day once..





However for now, things are somehow getting better...I do hope it's not temporary like last time again..but I also dun dare to hope too much too..Daddy's condition wasnt getting on well after the chemo that time...another cell ard 2cm + was found and thin thin cells are found too.Hopefully the medicine will help out with it and control it..Felt quite depressed yesterday...





The last weekend went sim lim square...before going out of my house, i actually asked my mom wad she wanna buy.She replied with 50 cdrs...Knowing that she's doin the so call "GOOD STUFFS" again..i just say her back..."for your those so call shi xiong again?duno why u everytime help them buy and not they burn themself...100 pieces all that..."And then guess wad..?I am being accused of "zhao nie" if u all know wad it means...according to her so call BUDDHISM.But wad happen in the end?I still buy for her.It is SO CLEAR that her shi xiong all that is just using her to burn all stuffs...even my sister and brother are lazy to help her.and halo...my mom is not that power in computer?all her questions will come to me and end up i help?





but also..end up i get all this SHIT...nvm abt that...passed her the CDS and the next mornin..she wan quarrel again with me.This time i just in kitchen eating my medi...wad she tell me?Those cds are those chanting for 7th month etc..u like that say will add to the sins..then all those gd karmas will all gone.HALO...that's only ur thinkin and i think we do have our thinkin too?she's only makin mi more n more disappointed in her so call BUDDHISM.still...nvm abt tat...when i come home?wad did i get u knoe...another round...now sayin i always late home..when i was at home after work on mon..tue i aso reach home b4 11pm which is earlier than usual...just a dinner and movie at westmall.den the blaming starts say i dun care my father.WTH is tat?





I asked my sister hows my father...wad ans did i get..?like this lor


I asked my mother hows my father...wad ans did i get?aiya..dun ask already la.very fan la


I did tok to my dad and ask abt hows he's feeling.I did tried to stay at home to accompany him but he's at the horse racing there...so end up i m just an idiot helpin them look after their dog while they go out happili.And know wad?not i dun wan care...am i given a chance to?i wunt even know when my dad is staying in hospital for chemo and such..noone bother to inform mi.





everyone just blame stuffs on me..BUDDHISM?dam selfish teachings?onli living in their own life...tinkin that they are the only 1 with the correct views and everyone shld accept them.haha...For wad i wan treat them gd when everytime i m just a vent anger pot to them!?Noone listen to me tok at all..noone...no matter if it's advices from real life cases or wad..there r more to say..but i'm juz tired of typin it..


Work is getting more n more busier and stressful..


Everything is just getting more n more stressful...Even my colleagues say i look like ghost=.="


I just duno when all these will make mi collapse...


am realli dam tired..





New Lancer 2.0L


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Sianx...

Long time no blog le..
Been a full-of-quarrels month/weeks...Am feeling so drained out..physically and emotionally..
Jeannie bek from China and Monday met up with her..Chatted at mcdonalds while transferring movie..
Went home ard 12 plus and slpt at 1am plus i think..
Been quite a long time since i catch up with her le...nice even though we just drinking at mcdonalds

Monday night quarrel again..this time i shld say i can feel the pain, the hurt from his words...it hurts and it really do...Our quarrel lasted till 4:30++AM in the morning...
I do hope our rs have a road to walk...as in ...not to the extend of we both no choice...sighx
start afresh again?ok let's try again n again til i duno wad will happen ..

Tuesday woke up at 645...which is ard 2hrs++ of slp..
my head hurts like shit...all the way from home to NIE...till i cant tahan and went to buy panadol ...
2 panadol for 60cents okay!? so dam ex..
but no choice..coz dam pain...den my eyelid dam heavy ..keep wanna close..
Wanted take MC but was feelin well..how to?

got free tix to watch invisible police at shaw towers...but we didnt go..we went jurong west there to have the japanese meal again..then after which went his hse watch Ci Qing(SpiderLillies) starring Yang Chen Lin...Ya...that lesbian show..
Eee got one part find it er xin..but anyway..after which go home n reach home ard 12++




Thursday, June 28, 2007

siGhx...

Been quite a long time since I did updates on my life and etc...
Had a quarrel with him on sunday night i tink...coz of issue with his work, stress and of coz me.
Felt quite disappointed coz apparently I didnt know I am also one of those thing that can drive him crazy...
Anyway that's a long issue and quarrel...thus think not expanding on it ...
It's not the 1st time this issue came up already...it's the 2nd...and I told him ...
"Dun worry, you wont feel sad again..."
With this sentence, I think maybe I've given up all those hopes and all the efforts put in..
I'm not sure about it..but I think I have really change...

Monday...
Didnt meet him ...he didnt go work coz no slp , tired and sick...i think so...
In the afternoon, he still will sms me as usual...ask me eat more...
At near 4 plus or 5 plus..he still will sms me telling me he's not fetching mi home later...
However, I think i've already expected all these...thus I dun really care..
Went home by transport @ NIE here...then after which I continue watch my Condor Hero...The china version one that the TV is currently showing...watched till ard 8 plus he called me...saying that he's on his way from
Pasir Ris(his house) to my house...So after few minutes...went down meet him and we went bukit gombak to have our dinner.
While seated there, we had a quarrel again...and that is coz of me go withdraw money.
Dun really wanna expand on that also...felt disappointed once again..He did clear this misunderstding with me but I guess I am just tired to question or ask more qns...In the end I just drink winter melon tea...
After which...the usual qn pop up again..."You wan go where?"
I am just so sick of this qn...and he already told me next time he wunt ask me think if i dont like to think.I just reply him back "I really have no place to go.I told you before already."
He drove towards town in the end..saying tat we go watch movie coz he remembers I keep want to watch "Spider lillies" starring yang chen lin...but in the end we didnt go town..we went upper selegie instead cos on the way there, i told him the show can get DL one..no nid waste money...went to eat nasi lemak and after which he send me back home and he go home...
When he reached home..gave me a call and chat a while with mi..in which i think silence more than words..

Tuesday...
Didnt meet him today...coz no car..by the time he got his car is already 11plus and think he scared that I unhappy...he waited for the car from 9 plus till 11 plus..telling me he went slp le.Anyway didnt really tok to him in the usual manner...I sounded cold I know..but wellx..sighx..

Wednesday...
I didnt sms him to even ask if he's coming to fetch me after work...I am tired of waiting for him everyday..though I admit even though I took transport back home, I still put my phone near to me...just in case he called..
However, by the time he called, I am already on bus on my way home...thus he told me he will meet me at my house there...
Wanted go clementi big bookshop initially..but was thinkin wad to eat after that..in the end thought of the "Different Taste Restaurant" he told me when we saw at bukit panjang on my way home...So told him we go there eat lor...In the end, we went pasir ris downtown eat...cos he claim there also got...but i think the reason is still coz his mom mabbe at there...want go find her to bring us go the jackpot room.
It's not that i dun like go out with his family or wadever...but just been thinkin...when will i ever have chance to just go out with him alone...without he keep saying or suggesting..we can go find blah blah n go blah together...I did told him a lot of times on this issue also...but..its the same thing over n over again...
Anyway he didnt call his mom or find his mom though when we eating there...think he sense somethin when I ask him why come downtown east eat..and after his reply..
After eating...we walk ard downtown...went the arcade..saw one kid so cute...he play the hook doll machine...after the hook went down and hook...he exclaimed "ai ya" and while the toy is on the hook moving towards the hole...he said again "ah.!." and den it dropped down the hole and he caught it...
So cute the scene...
Anyway after downtown...we went to White Sands cos i want to buy hardcover book for organizer..
Ended up at there walk for ard 1++ hr then the qn pop up again...
"Where you wan to go"
I told him again..."I got no place to go..."
His next standard line..."you wan go where i fetch you go lah"
my line.."If really no place go then go home lor"
And he send me home after that...on the way...he commented one sentence which makes me think a while..
He say "ni hao xiang bu xi huan wo le"
I ask him "huh" , pretending I didnt catch it...and he just shake his head and say nothin..

Maybe just tired of everything...or mabbe I've learnt not to have hopes or do anythin again.




Tuesday, June 19, 2007

Busy or Lazy

Haben realli blog a lot these days...sort of busy and sometimes is pure laziness...

For the whole of the past week...was busy cooking, rushin home etc..


cooked by my sis and me...she stir fry the pork chop =.=

pink skies...nice...

** Hopes everythin will turn out well...**

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Wednesday
Went his hse and he play CS with his bro..the lsoer got to treat...in the end his brother lose...so we got free dinner...
Went fish n co with his bro n mom and have our dinner there...
Total bill ard 100 for 4 pax..
Expensive and i dun realli like the new york fish n chips i ate...too much flour..same for the original 1 he eating =\
the lime juice not bad..sour enuff..
After dinner @ tampines..we meet his younger sis and den go bek pasir ris together..after which he send me home..

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

tired..

Feel so tired today...i miss slpin...
think is not enuff slp le ba...
Anyway yesterday he came to fetch me off work...
and after which we proceed to eastwood there to find the doctor again...
yah...become fatter le...
the doctor say i went bek 1 month too earli le...but after some toking...
He say nvm bah..this time let me through...
and so yap...i can use the medicine again..for dieting purposes...
Doc say my carbo still a lot...and that i anyhow eat...
Yah..i becoming fat...went on the scale and i m fatter...so sad..
but nvm...food control again...and yap...i wan bek my 47.5kg T.T
was given 2 months supply which cos mi ar 204 bucks ...heart pain le...
saturday goin see dental...sure burn quite a lot there aso...
haix...been burning money these day...

on a happy note...heard from my sis that my dad finally touched the wii...they show him how to play the bowling and he finds it fun and just say "technology"
haha...hope he will find it fun to play and use it to kill time...that's the main purpose my sis wanna buy that machine...

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Monday

Monday as usual , a working day...

Weekends always seem so short...

Didnt do anything today...After work went home...as simple as that..

went home and do up my puzzle and manage to complete it...

nothing else to blog abt le...

having meeting soon

Monday, June 04, 2007

Some updates....

Friday
Didnt meet him on friday coz he went dental...took the transport home...reach home so earli...b4 6pm...b4 545pm to be exact....got BBQ but lazy to go...and partly cos of the small family quarrel the previous day...no mood go...Spend time with daddy and family...

Saturday
Slpt till ard noon time 12pm plus...Called him and he's without car..=.= so took a cab down to find him..cab fare was 20 bucks...cos of a jam in pie due to choppin tree...bleahz...

went in his room while he's bathing and after which saw this cd "School for seduction" and feel like watching...so on it and start watching while he play on my sister's nintendo DS...After ard 10mins..i den confirmed that i watched the show b4...

He asked wher i wanna go but lazy me just dun feel like goin anywher...

In the end after much slacking, we went century square and catch the 1030 show..shrek 3...Cute...After which went dua pek gong pray pray again...


After praying...we went makan at selegie ...punggol nasi lemak..den he cont send mi home after pumpig petrol..


Sunday

Woke up ard 12pm plus...after which call him...He say feel tired and sick so cont slp till ard 3-4pm plus he called me and came to fetch me...Cos his aunt nid the car at 7pm..thus we went bek pasir ris first after which walked to white sands with ah sean...coz i got no money in my ez link card for take bus and we have no shingling!!

but it's a short walk so stil ok...

After reachin white sands, we continue take mrt to tampines...

Reached tampines le...they teman me go mini toons buy the cheap jigsaw puzzle...4 for 10 bucks...winnie the pooh and after which went popular to buy the boards for the puzzle...

Had linner @ billy bombers and lastly..helped my sister buy nintendo wii @ century square...




works by sensor...and the wii sports is fun enuff...


asked him to send mi home 1st coz i wana let my sis they faster set up so that my dad can play also...


he didnt come up my hse...waiting for his haircut..


Anyway...the games are so tiring...esp tennis and boxing..


oh ya..his sis came bek from bangkok and bought mi a sleeveless shirt and also this dam cute tortise...




Wednesday, May 30, 2007

Back to blog after so long...
Been quite a bad week...with my daddy being hospitalised on friday and goin for his 1st treatment on saturday...
However things are better in the sense he can come bek home on Sunday...

Been diagnose with liver cancer...and heard that things that got to do with liver is quite fast...
More complications are added with my dad's current medical records...having hep b, diabetics,high blood pressure.this results in also liver sirrosis..dun really noe how to spell...

Mommy and everyone in the family seems better..more positive than on friday, saturday when my dad was in hospital...And i only go once due to my virus illness spreaded by duno who that caused me dizzyness, headache, fever blah..

Mom have been telling us to spend more time with dad.Does praying helps i duno..but have been goin to dua pek gong quite regularly...Doc say that one uncle lived quite long...ard 2yrs plus and is still living well..just got to control diet and watch his health...but the qn is...is 2 yrs realli consider long?

Colleagues hab been gd..telling me to tink positiveli...For the past few days i can't...cried a lot at nite..especialli when i tink of anytime i mite lose my dad...
He is helping me ..hab been gd...offering mi a shoulder for me to cry on...treating me well...bringing mi to the temple with his mom...with his mom teaching me how to pray and light the coil of incense and such...

Dad's condition is okay for now...except that he will say he feel bloated...
today jie fu accompanying him n mom to the hospital to see the doc...he have fever yesterday...

Yesterday went dua pek gong...he came to fetch me after work and without any complaints of being tired, he drove all the way to changi village first to hab our dinner...
Upon reaching changi village, walked ard several rounds looking for stuffs to eat but just cant find any and partly also no appetite ba...in the end just drank sugar cane and cos of a simple qn i asked,"last time we eat at the cafe near thai village got sell baked rice a not?", he also didnt eat anything...he suggest go pray first after which then bring mi go another place makan...
Anyway choke on the coarse grain of the sugar cane drink...

Went dua pek gong pray while he sit outside and wait for me pray finish...after which he seem to be more happi..bek to will joke with me...
Brought mi to white sands to hab that hongkong cafe food...thought got baked rice but only available after 10pm...Saw Jesper ther with his gf..and we sat next to their table.

In the end ordered siew mai and curry while he ordered pork floss rice and eat...
after eating, we proceed to the basement to buy some food...
Thanx for his patience accompanyin mi shop thr ntuc...
After which he drove mi bek to bukit batok and he went home again...

They told me stay positive, everything's fine...
ya..i m trying...reali trying hard...coz it isnt easi , waking up everyday and wondering if ur dad's still alive and well..
A lot of regrets and memories goin through the brain...mabbe that's wad happen when u goin to lose somethin precious to u?only then u will start tinkin back and regret stuffs..
Wadever it is...do hope and pray for a miracle..although the chance is like so slim...

will be spending more time at home...esp when my mom goin overseas soon

oh ya...hope his 4th aunt will wake up soon from coma aso...in a danger condition at TTS hospital...

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

**pRaY...

HopeFully everything will turn out well....realli pray for that...

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Long time no update...


anyway for past few days...doin nth much ...as usual goin for movies...


dinner at all various of places =.= selegie...gombak...upper thompson...cck...


yap..those normal standard places..


ate sushi tei on sunday with ah sean and him...


total bill 82 for 3 ppl...


dam hungry and craving for sushi...right after i ate with my colleague at nihon mura on friday...


take a look at our whole table of sushi...:D there are 6 of us...and i tink everyone took 6 plates...and best is..that is ONLI for sushi...excluding those non sushi items...







Variety wise..i would say...okay la...not bad...n guess wads best here?its these sushi plates are all 99cents each only...so, if u like to eat sushi very much...recommendation to u..:D



Excluding sushi..they do sell Sashimi, charcoal grilled, noodles, nabeyaki, donbuki and more ...



They have 3 branches...mainly at Jurong West, Revenue House @ Newton Road and Tampines @ Tampines Swimming Complex...Anyone interested in further address or contact number of the restaurant can just ask me...They have high tea buffet too...:D



For the sushi tei i went on saturday...went to the serangoon branch...at chom chom there...Quite fresh...but but but ..the miso cheese ebi bentai that newly introduced was dam salty...very very salty...shld hab taken the original one...nicer le...



bought 2 shoes from westmall too...buy one get one free...so i spend 26 bucks to buy 2..not bad of a deal...





duno when will wear though :\ but nice nice :D


hmm..let me think wad else to blog...yesterday running fever @ 38 degree...but but but..i m not uncomfortable..i m feelin very alrite...only that keep cough and also very hot my body...my 2 fren tell me...better see doctor ar..later dengue...=.=


choy...


anyway..a very big happie burthdays to gina tang...one more step nearer to big 30..heehee...best wishes and may all ur wishes come true :D


Been quite busy at work nowadays...requests coming in non stop...haix...and a whole chunk of work waiting to be done...bleahx...


looking forward to finishin them n relax..but i doubt can relax...




*Rain rain go away...

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

it's always hard to trust after being lied

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Bored + FeeL Like BloGGin Lor...

As above the title...am just bored...
This blog had been around for wow...nearly 4yrs...
Many times I neglected it a lot...i admit...my fault..=(
Looking bek at the memories...there are so many feelings involved...Some of which when I tink bek..it brings bek a lovely smile :D
The first time i slowly neglect this blog was when I was so in love with this online game call Ragnarok Online Malaysia by gameflier ...
It is also in this game that I forgotten abt ZQ...the guy from ACS...I still have the badge when I first met him at his secondary school...nono...@ Balestier...and the movie tix is stil there...believe it or not...HAHA...
During that time, I dun tink I am really so into him...even though I appear so in front of everyone i think...=
After playing RO, I came to know more frens...more people...
However, one thing sad is that...i think i only closer to one girl throughout my game...
Though now we nvr game together le...but its always possible to find her to chat all that...:D
Other than this ger fren, sugarplum...aka nottiqiki..., I also got to know several guys who treat me like princess inside the game...and even now...we are still in contact...
1.Charlee
Even though now me n him no more contact liow due to his gf issue...I still wunt forget how he used to sek me a lot...and the dreamcatcher he sent from msia bought from melaka...
2.Leonz
The guy who also very very extremely sek me...but one thing i've regretted is hurting him ..though its long time ago...
3.Sei Lim Kim Hoe aka W
One of the ham sap guys...but pro gamer...and sometimes still disturb mi @ msn =.= Ham sap...
4.Acid dear
Always protect me de...and cheer me up ..remember those times with daremon...and how i used to commit suicide whackin mobs when bad mood..and he follow...His friendster very nice..got the photo of me n his character...haha...though he's a malay..but nvr forgotten abt him..
5.Daremon
Last time the first guy i got to know who teach me how to play RO..my so call RO bf...hahah XD
6.Uncle t3mpo
...This uncle that toks to me when I low and he do share his stuffs with me aso...last time used to me my guild lord...when lvl reach high we can claim stuff from him...
Of course there's somemore which i tink i miss out..like my didi, steve...jenna...Anon...and those i knoe...
Anyway I also got to know this guy call Lim Kim Seng aka <"fire">..
Lim kim hoe's real brother...
Through him i got to learn a lot of stuffs...Also coz of him...I suffer quite a lot...til the extend of not eating...HP bills every month ard 100++...helpin him with asgs n neglect my own...putting him as number 1 blah...
I still find it hard to blame him..or maybe I cant blame him for anythin i knoe..cos feelings are stuffs u cant control...but coz of him...i aso got to knoe how fragile frenship is..cos it concerns one of my so call "gd" fren
Also coz of him, i choose to further my studies...run far from singapore and everythin...
Indirectly cos of this...I got to knoe a great and fun bunch of frens ...
We play together...tour together...shop together...quarrel together...cook together...slp together...and go thr lots together...I still miss days with them...wher they sek me a lot too... :b
Among this bunch...includes a great and nice guy, my ex-bf, Zen...
We broke up cos of the hurt given by each other...cos of the trust in between us...and cos of the rashness...and cos of personality problems...and cos of so many so many...
He is a very very gd guy i wuld say...
When I am sick...he took very gd care of me...
Go wherever I wanna go with me..pay for my stuffs...
oh ya...did i mention his parents are very very nice people too?
Paid for my new year trip to Sydney...Paid for my trip to phuket...my expenses too...
His mother more cute...call him to ask him wads my impression of her..more anxious then me...
He is really a very gd guy..,talented and now at this pt...I came to realise and learn more abt love coz of him too...and sometimes I do miss him..his gds...
We are still frens now..but not as close as last time i guess...been a long time since I seen him...he will forever be a very important person in my life...this i promise*

After I came bek Singapore, played a game called Water Margin Online...
Through there...memories was developed too...
Got to learn a lot from there too...
Few people from there that taught mi a lot...
1.WXB aka NOOB aka Kok Beng
My first WMO fren i toked to...during which we shared some topics abt bgr and life...he's my WMO husband =.=" and the first guy who protected me when people tried to killed mi in game while i leveling...
Also coz of him i joined his guild , Lucifer which stands for Fallen Angel...associated with devil stuffs...and got to experience a whole new journey...
2.NoHealz
This guy not realli keng in english..but I caused him quite a lot of sadness when I marry NOOB during that time...He's gd coz let me leech and protect me lor ...haha...
3.NoSpellz,Gryfindore,hermit
All gd guys that helped mi in game too
4.Androol
ok la this guy...tok big big...but very bear to spend money in the game and wunt forget us...
5.Bambee
6.Randy
7.SamllSalt
8.Zhishi

Got a lot more but these few are highlighted ones...
Firstly let me tok abt Bambee and SamllSalt ba...
I got to know abt SamllSalt aka XX only during nite times...always help him find party...
As for Bambee...always party with him and the others also..in game...
When got hero le...I form party always ask them...used to be in Zhishi party de...
There was once...when my only wmo fren wasnt online that often, i toked to this character named Zhishi...we shared our bgr stuffs again..tokin abt 3rd parties...
Btw..Zhishi is not a ger..but a guy...he use that cos of his ex...
tokin till here...i dun realli feel like continueing...cos lazi leh..
mabbe some other times?
heehee....over n out...end of story :b

Prata @ Upper Thompson

Yesterday went to have prata @ upper thompson, The prata house or place...I forgotten...with his dad...free dinner...:D


Anyway after work i went home and when reach the control station, received his call say he coming over to fetch me...so waited at westmall..gia gia and walk ard...so long no walk..feel like buyin thin for him..but nth to buy...in the end damage was only like 11dollars and 30 cents...cos i bought these for dap, xm and justina...cute toys XD

they are so cute rite...XD

over n out..hope today pass fast!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Movies

Went to watch movie yesterday @ ard 9plus at nite...
The movie we catch was 28 Weeks Later...about virus spreading and stuffs...
gross ba i wuld say..
Movie at 1120pm thus from 9pm till 1120..we are rotting...
basicalli was at cathay..so we went long john silver to makan...cos i feel like makan...
den after which ..go starbucks to drink the mango n raspberry frap...mixed...
den we went wait for movie to start...
the seats are big...no arm rest in between one..
the show was gross n gross ...
a scary thought...wad if one day singapore reali bcome like this...tink i mite choose to be infected first...at least wunt live and suffer and try to run from life...bleahz..i duno ><
all i knoe is..yesterday a happi day le..
=)
*thanx le

Monday, May 14, 2007




Some photo again..with lucky XD

MC Mc MC

Wednesday
Dap bday...we went BBQ at pasir ris park..wellx..we didnt book a pit..not at all...we used a special way of bbq...portable bbq!
A total of 6 people went ther...in which we dun hab any music...dun hab any lights..and a lot of cats surround us...cos the bbq pit we set up was rather small...not forgetting...Low..
so the 6 of us happili bbq away...with sesame oil...cos noone bought butter =.=
n then...n then...the first food was ready onli like 1015pm ...so for a start...we decide to cut cake first and makan some cake...cos hungry leh...

photos still in my camera..no time upload..
Had fun tat nite...though its onli the same old few...dap,xm,just,xm bro and him..

Thursday
On MC!!!

Friday
On MC again!!

Saturday
Didnt go anywher except his house to rot...n ya..to ntuc to help his aunty buy groceries...

Sunday
Didnt meet him cos no car to come fetch me...Watch finished my tokyo juliet..nice nice...

Monday
workin...monday blues...

Tuesday
Goin see dentist in the mornin...

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Today

Just had my appraisal with my Reporting officer @ 11am till 1145am...in which more targets/goals was added to my job...omg..
den went for lunch...and then went meeting again...@ 2pm till ard 330pm den come bek...
Colleagues are nice...hear me complain throat pain...one gave me Siasangji cooling tea...another few offer me lozenges..
now its 5:30pm...few more hours/mins ..will be off to his hse..to wrap the pressie...mabbe a simple card...change my clothes...and off to our mini BBQ @ Pasir ris park with dap, xm, justina n him...small small BBq...
My throat is still killing me...
wonder how to eat later...
*sobs*

Bugis Again...

Just a short update...
went bugis with justina yesterday...
by the time i reach bugis..its was like 7:20pm plus...
see...thats how long i must take to reach bugis...
anyway i was still earli cos justina was caught up in a meeting till 7 plus..
so in the end by the time she reached...was 8 plus le...
we quickly browse through looking for Daphne bday pressie...
Tokin abt here...we intend to give her perfume...n she always uses coolwater..wanted to buy that for her...but den...we tried another brand...it was a round bottle with light purple water inside...His mother actually wanted to give it to me tat time...now quite gek..cos i realise the perfume smell realli nice...and light...and its more expensive than cool water =.=
we spend quite some time smelling this n that...den decided on a old perfume...
The secret wish...
:D
Reason number 1 : we hungry la
Reason number 2 : Container so nice T.T
Reason number 3 : Smells quite light n nice too...
Finally after that...we had our dinner..@ 9plus...at the chicken rice stall..cos wanna save money...broke le..*sob
after which 10 plus we went off...took my usual bus 61...and by the time i reach home..its 1130pm...omg...

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Monday, 17th May 2007

2day is a sianx day...
very slpy coz been called in..or rather..arrowed in to a boring meetin tat lasted for 2hrs plus...
went in to listen to the accuconference thing again...n the person give the stupid demo again..which is dam long winded...
luckily someone stopped him n proceed to the questions asking..
but it still end ard 430 ..after which quickly go find susen they all...cos..play squash again
:D
we took turns playin in pairs....would say it is tiring...sweat n sweat..even if its playin by myself..hitting the walls by myself...
but one thing...beginning to love squash more n more...fun...:D
Anyway, bek to office and check my phone...my boss called me but i was not ard...guess its abt the appraisal thing...tue bah i guess...
He came to fetch me after which...to my house to take my passport and have a quick change of clothes...den went bek his office to pick up his sister...
As his sister is busying, we loiter a while in the office and help out if can lo..
Den after sending his sister bek home to pasir ris ...weili came n fetch us ...
then we went jb to have our steamboat...
Would say the steamboat is alrite...the tom yam is salty...the chicken soup is like japanese noodle those soup...but i would say the servings are quite small..in a sense, we order our dishes..like we want wad and they charge it...
had 8 quail eggs..cos noone dare to eat except me.. XD
Sit n chit chat a while den after eating...went car washing...which we sat there for dam long again...the people working there was just dam slow...!#@!
oh ya...the total cost of our steamboat was like 62rm onli..including drinks and extra orders like...pineapple rice and msia noodle...cheap gua..
at the wash car place, weili askin him to intro gers and such...den he say he choose ppl name from my handphone..it is onli then that i realise...from A to B all guys name...=.= till C onli a few gers..-_______-"
Anyway...the car wash cost 8rm onli i tink..they clean interior and exterior too...
After which we went to pump petrol...den finally they send mi home...and then weili drive him home since they both live east side...
my nose is killin mi now...its on the run again...and guess wad...my throat's a bit sore and pain liow...cham..goin sick soon again..-___-"
Tired tired tired...i nid my slp...but i can't yet..cos later goin buy present...after which the next day goin celebrate Dap, my ex housemate , birthday...><

Monday, May 07, 2007

Happi bday~

Sunday

Sunday went by quite fast...
Woke up and waited for him to wake up...while i continue watch my Tokyo Juliet starring Lin Yi Chen...
After he woke up, he came fetch me after which we proceed to Sim lim square to walk walk...
before walkin we went burger kings to have our lunch..or rather his lunch...cos of the spiderman toy =.=
den walk walk a while, we proceed bek to his house where we watch some TV with his sisters...den go white sands to buy his brother's cake...while i collect, he went to purchase comic..and we saw a cute doreamon thing which tot can fly...but its just a fan..thus if wan buy the flying one..nid go bek to bugis...
anyway after which waited for his brother come home with gladys...den we cut the cake..
and after which...laze ard and then he send mi home le...
happi birthday to his brother...

Concidence?

Saturday

Went Bras Basah Complex today after waking up and smsing him...He came pick mi up as usual after meeting his customer...
Quite sway yet no sway day...while reversing, he actually "bang" into another car in the carpark...when we go down the car, it was dented.
Guess what's the car we bang into...haha..its a bmw 3 series...XD
Conclusion...their metal is hard...

Anyway after buying wad i wanna buy, we left that place and head to his customer's place for repairing of the car...When we reach there...amazingli...there's no more dent..=.="
We did saw it bent...Nah..anyway...its just a few scratches but it look too obvious and polish couldnt get them off...thus marker was used to fill up the color..=.=

After a while tokin with his customer, we went off to Elias mall to grab our lunch..I had ba chor guo tian...and at elias mall, he went to take dou yu 2 for me to see...After that we go his house and saw sean there le...so we 3 watch shooter together....

Halfway through the show...he kicked and broke the convertor...thus, no more shooter to watch...=( we watched dou yu 2 instead...watched around 8-9pm, we went out with sean to makan...

Long time no go geylang Lor 17 there makan tim sum, so i requested there for dinner...Actually he didnt want to go ther cos of sean n his parents...but in the end he still went...After parking all that...we noticed a durian stall ...new one to be exact...it made the place a lot more brighter...

We proceed to cross the road ...and I am in front of them...so i walk towards the seat...
Notice a guy keep staring...Den i turn bek and saw him tokin to the guy =.="...and then i got to realise who's the guy...
The guy is actually our game friend..last time we played wmo together and always in the same party...HAHA....of coz..he knoe me too =.=" and of coz..he know sean too...cos all of us play WMO..=.="
He was there with his ger...Another WMO player which i tink i heard b4...
So in the end, we toked abt WMO and hows the situation now and stuffs...Been considering whether i wanna go bek play...A lot politics n stuffs inside...duno ...
but first time saw who androol is...haha XD
Anyway send androol bek to AMK..den we send sean bek and after which is me bek =) but before that went Marina South meet XiaoLong, a Pin Guan Lookalike...and his gf...stayed ther a while and he send mi home..


Friday, May 04, 2007

Branded or not?

Just a thought that comes to me again :D..
cant blame me cos i just submitted my documents...hehe..

Why buy branded?
At this point of time...i know a lot of ppl will tell me...
1)Quality...
But this isnt really true...Compare mango clothes with other stores...their material wasnt that thick or gd aso?Of course, you can tell me...mango consider branded meh?Well...den look at other branded stuffs then...
Once someone told me, a branded wallet actually spoils faster than one from China..O.o i quite believe cos that person takes branded stuff..and buy a lot too...wellx..mabbe that apply to that brand only?no idea.

2)Cos design nice
Well...design issue i have no comments...mabbe except...a lot of stuffs also same wad~just the brand itself makes it nice?hmm...

3)Unique
Dun tink so, cos they aso sell in stores and ppl aso buy them..not as though ther's onli 1 or 2 ard in the world country

right now i dun hab anymore reason to add on to this list...but to the other i hab..
Suggested reasons..
1)Face
Taking branded is got a lot of face..can show off...

2)Monkey see monkey do
No nid for me to explain?ppl got so i aso wan...

3)Cost
Can show that i got money to buy...

wellx...dun reali knoe wads the reason for branded stuffs...anyone got anymore reasons ...pls do let me knoe?

Happie Birthday Mummy

Happie birthday to my mother who have her bday yesterday...
Thanks to him too...for bringin me to makan and shop for a pressie for my mom...
yap rite...this is the 1st time i actually give my mom present ..out of so many yrs...
he asked mi to go home and cut cake with my mom rather than still go out play...
thanx..
anyway bought a puma shoe for my mom..cos she goin china soon and she got say she nid that kinda shoe...bought kids one though...cos i feel the pattern nicer than the adults one...
he shared with me the present cos he duno wad thin to buy aso ...
my sis bought a pair of diamond earrings for my mom..cost ard 400+...she crazy =.="
Anyway ...had the cake cutin ard 10pm++...with lucky lookin blurly , duno wads happening..
den eat the cake and go koonz...
but still, i m so tired T.T
oh..forget to mention...i went for squash yesterday after like 1.5wks without exercising due to the weather..:D fun..

CuTe LucKy Again~*

sianx...didnt go anywher yesterday..or shld i put i got go everywher =.=

he came fetch me after work after which fetch his aunt n sis...den we go bek to his hse first..which is at the east...thus west to east again =.= den after which went century square to catch spiderman 3...b4 that eat cartel .. yep..after that he send me home n i koonz..thats it for the day.. oh ya..spiderman a long long show..2hr 20mins ...sit till leg soft =.=

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today is a sianx sianx day..toked to omushimushi..my last time wmo fren...we always party ...with bambee n salt...haha...askin abt game..and also toked to androol.... hear abt wmo changes..tinkin wanna go bek play a nnot.. miss those times.. b4 tat..tok to blazeelf...wmo fren aso, his fren aso.. kinda miss my bro from wmo too...sighx

***wad if one day u saw 2 routes infront of u...ur instinct asked u to take the road that seems to hab no end...but the road u are tryin on is full of beautiful scenes and u knoe that at the end there is an end with more beautiful stuffs...which one would u choose?

Wednesday, May 02, 2007

Thoughts...

Just some thoughts for pondering...

What is considered friends, gd friends and best friends?
How would u actualli seperate they 3?
How many true friends do you really have..?

Think it through..
What if one day...your fren...
1) want to borrow from you 2k ?would u lend her/him?
if u have not enuff, would u borrow as much as possible to him/her?
if she/he told u , he/she mite not return the money to u so fast, would u still return?

2)drink till she/he is dam drunk?
would you look out for her/him and take care of her/him?

3)is very sad and sounds weird...would you ask wad happen and care truely from the heart?

4)stop contacting you ...would you bother to contact bek and ask wad he/she doin?or rather..would you even call up ur fren to see if they are doin fine or well?

5)is in serious problem..and nids guarantor for some stuffs that wuld earn u debts if he/she run away...would you still help out?

Do you have a friend that can give up themself to help u?and i mean give up..as in no selfish thoughts at all...calling once in a while to find out how u have been....willingly to trust u and lend u money/stuffs...share with u gd stuffs ...seriousli keep a lookout for u , caring for u , no matter wher n when..

its always easy to hab frens...but how many realli are concerned and care abt u ?

was told ger n ger frenship is just like that...go out..tok tok...
when in problem...guess its hard to find anyone ard?when u are drunk all that...guess they will bother abt themself?abt the fun ?
I have no idea...like i say...its some thoughts for pondering...
Sunday
woke up ard 2 plus and went makan @ Elias mall coz he sick...but after which, we proceed bek his house, take my stuffs den went Tampines and catch the nightmare detective @ tampines mall...gross show..Yucks..blood gushin out from anywher and intestines coming out =.= ...in the end is i dun realli understd the back of the story =.=
After movie, went Upper serangoon ther eat nasi lemak n buy douhua bek for my mom...

Monday
Didnt go anywher...Went to find him after work..ya..mrt from west to east...den tabao for him...den slack at his hse...playin with camera...den went pasir ris park walk walk ..cos ard 5 mins walk from his place...den go bek his hse slack again...den he send mi home

Tuesday
Eat his bro's bday dinner @ Fei Cui Palace @ Taka...total bill ard 200++ i tink..not sure though...had peking duck..but wasnt as fantastic as Shangri La's...N i feel tat the service in Fei Cui is not gd...rice actualli come after the dishes =.=..
the dessert which i ordered, almond jelly, wasnt nice 2...=.="
overall not tat nice ba..
after dinner, he send mi home

Monday, April 30, 2007

upDateS




updates for the weekend~




Friday


i forgot wad i do liow...=.=" tink i updated ..




Saturday


saturday morning, went Pokka sales with Alfred...Yap u didnt see wrong...I stil go the pokka sales!Reached there at ard 915..and there's a long queue already...


by the time we reach the counter there, a lot of drinks had been sold out...thus in the end bought ard 13 cartons in total only...Mostli green tea ...






After buying and loading into that small car of alfred's..a picanto...came bek to my office to load them into my cubicle...we walked a total of ard 3 trips up n down for all the cartons...phew finally done den alfred send me home and I slpt and wait for him to call me...


P.S. i not pig..just that the sales finish at ard 1045++ am and he is still working


After ard 2-3pm..finally receive his call ...He didnt bring his hp , so used his cousin's phone to call me...He came to fetch me ard 15 mins later and we proceed to Taka best denki to buy camera...


after so long decision..finally bought olympus cos due to the wter resistant and shock resistant + in cold weather country it wunt crack and etc..

presenting my new toy...that comes with 3 1GB xD card and a tripod stand and 2 batt...


and the lucky draw coupons..*grinz