deCisiOnz r MaDe By HuMaNZz...

i knoe wad to do ledi....
reali knoe liao..
thanx dardar for her advice...thx all my frens who were with mi when i nided them..
thanx everyone...
its time to........lalaz...
dun wori abt js...i knoe wad to do..

Ended~

yep..everythin ended.
tears also dry liao...gonna stand bek on my 2 feet againz
yep...its goin be a new beginnin~

Britney - Everytime

Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we Strangers
whenOur love is strong?
Why carry on without me?
 
(Chorus)Everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so smallI
guess I need you, Baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you, Baby
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way I see clear
What have I done?
You seemed to move on easy
 
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so smallI
guess I need you, Baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you, Baby(Ohhhhh)
 
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my SORRY
 
At night I pray
That soon your face will fade away
And everytime I try to fly, I fall
Without my wings, I feel so smallI
guess I need you, Baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, your haunting me
I guess I need you baby

douShiTe?

why must let mi bleaf n destroy it?
sigh~**

^Na You Zen Me YaNg Ne - CelEsT ^

yep yep...bek to update a while...hmmm...been listenin to this song from juz now til now...reason very simple..cos...i got put this file in my mailbox...and i redownload bek...anywayz...this com suxs ok...everythin no hab..msn also nid redownload...and worst..everythin in chinese setting...wooo...
hmm...gd luck to ya..if ya readin..but dun tink will ba...=)
8 more days to go ..beginnin to understd more n more things...

!!!

stomache...dun feel well...so sick feelin..wanna die better..bleahz
everythin suxs..yeah suxs...lappie sound like goin explode...scary...
all those bad signals n gd..all mix up
gd thoughts bad thoughts..i hab a lot..
past n present which to bleaf i duno..
everythin is goin a wron turn now...juz wish to slp slp n slp..
10days left...wads the final ans?god knoes...i nid a place to hide n wait...
thats all i nid...some directions..and a place i belong to....
kill mi someone?
The WorLd dIsAppEaR the DaY u SaY gDbyE...<--wad song is this..so familiar...=.=
pray hardz....

cOnFuSiOn

why is luv so confusing?not even a fixed ans?or m i juz makin it confused?
no idea...i juz hope to get out of this confusion soonz...real soon ...i tink my thinkin abt 29 i told jes is wron...=)
wads the rs now...wads everythin now...how shld i treat ya...how shld u treat mi?
haha..who knoes..?u duno..i duno..everyone dunoz...
wil i be able to handle a ldr?jes u ask correct....take the 1st ans...bad ans...hf u oso correct...
all ard are negative ans...so i tink the final ans is ard ther?but then...its juz wad i tink...
or m i juz consolin or makin myself feel better?11 days left...countdown?
so dam long ba...but wad can i do...live my life happily?i duno wads the final ans...i duno wads he's thinkin..i duno everythin...that reminds mi of the song complicated...hahaha..but techno is stil nicest...tink gonna switch to techno modeeee
wads mine will be mine rite?but will things every turn out well?

...

bek to update...
kinda blur now...confusin...very...
why am i always in this situation?.......
weird...weird n weird...nid some signals...sigh~**

WeIrd world...

The picture is so blur now...i realli cant judge...sighz~**
wads wron with 29/7?or rather..wads with 29/7?
tink somethin i nvr learn is to be firm with all my decisions...
always habin second thoughts...all those wad if...><
gotto learn this...sigh~**
can someone tell mi...
anythin will last forever??
or nth will last 4ever?
its a big big puzzle...n i dun feel like go see my great grand father then got the ans...
Blur blur picture...everythin is so blur n confusin...wads luv?
 

BoReDz...

yawns~*
so tired..now cp lesson again...yap..testin the uploadin music thingy...cannot work ler......=.=
i uploaded a mp3...stil got space...not bad ler...but duno how to upload...so ..wait lor...for gina..haha..or mabbe go surf on later...so lazi do practicals now..=.=
How do u define a gd gf?a gd fren?
1 more hr...to end lesson..seems so longgggggg...!@#@!
mabbe shld juz do my practical?mabbe time pass faster...hmm..no idea...see how..
yesterday went out with hf..bugis shop shop...saw flora and bh n eve...o.O
dao ba bh n eve...=.="
always bring knife go out 1..see ppl dun knoe how to hiiiiiii =.="
but however..eve did say hi yesterday..haha
so sianz..tml got jap lesson..tml nid hand in the mws report...tml nid do kanji test...tml tml tml..tml nid do soo mani things...suxs...
not yet done my cprog practicals also...sighzzz..so bz...duno wad shld i doooooo first....too lazy...
yesterday explainin things with him..or rather..answerin qns abt db...then help him find song...so bz for few hrs...when finalli can rest...i went watch vcd...yeahh..secret gardenn...nice niceeee..but when at 2nd disc...a bit tired liow..so juz go slp...
though the reply is gettin slow yesterday when he studyin...but i tink...mabbe studyin ba...i shld trust him rite?...sigh~*
duno wad i tinkin ba...tc of own health n gambatte ba...all de best...
tonite no nid slp leeee
yeaa
*cLapz*

Sliding Doors

yep..today went to watch this movie in library..while gina doin her weblog...haha...juz dun feel like goin home..dun ask mi why..no reason for mi to go home anymore...hmmm..
this is a very very nice movieeeee...~~recommended to watchhhh..although in video lar...but nice nice...
shows 2 stories...
the guy is habin an affair...and this ger who got sacked,board a train...this is wher the story split...they show 2 complete different story..flash here n ther...
one is if the ger board the train...one is the ger who nvr got onto the train...all cos of the train door...
if she board the train...she will knoe another guy...and then found out abt the affair her bf hab with another ger...
if she haben board it..she will get injured and no time to catch them makin out...til the end ba..
nice story...if u were her..which would u choose?hahaha
got time go borrow see see...nice nice..~~
all the wad if..^^

LibRaRy

yaps..current location is in library now...*yawns...
dun intend to go home...so sianz n lazi..so go library rot...one more hr to rot...seems like noone habin breakie at this time 11-1...weirdo...nvm ba..after sch then eat lor... 3 more hrs..
yesterday is a sucky day...hopein to receive a person's sms...end up receive another person's...bleahz...a bit dulan also...cos i change nick for someone..but another person tot i changin for him...arghz...everythin so suxs la...juz finish doin my PI weblog...so lame weblog...nid to print out for that teacher..!#!@
how to print la..no ink...=.=""
haben touch any of my cprog...so tired...fri go sentosa...sat go out ..sun go out....all late home...3 days also noone bother...~
juz now tok to jacklyn..hoho..yeah..abt guys?haha..ask mi hows my love life and all that lor...yep..which ger dun like to be pamper...?true..i agree completely..hahaha
but due to this stupid ict network or rather..np wireless...get dc so fast...no chance to even say byebye..or tok next time...-____-"
yesterday ppl attitude with mi...or issit i attitude with ppl first..?no idea...
say tired so ask him go slp?no wron ba..?dun wan slp i also no force him go slp?then change nick to yawnn?means tired rite?so go slp lor...anyway,he tok to mi...i keep ask him go slp...he dun tok to me..i say he bz n nid book appointment with him......wad does this shows ?but he realli indirectli sayin he tired wad..and he liked to slp earli wad...
hmm...issit my wron? duno...but juz feel..i dun nid to be so without my own life ba...i tink i been living in that situation for so long liow...now must get bek to the last time js...afterall,he dun even realised i had changed so much~
so hungry now...bleahz...wher are all the humans?><..45 more mins to go~
i wanna slp n slp n slp n nvr wakie~~!!
hoho..i m crazy~~=.=

BlueSky Exhibition

...today went to this exhibition with ky n zh...=.="" recommended by tan ky...=.="""
-_____________________________-""
basicalli...its an exhibtion by er...schs?setting up their own stalls to sell things...companies are ther aso..=.="
we reach ard 530?the closin time is 6...haha..went in less then 5mins out liow...
den go wher arh...hmm...planned to meet hf...so ma...end up walkin with them..aimlessli...o ya..went to eat bk...the banana pie?or wadever la...after that..walk walk ard...then meet hf...went to thai express see her eat..haha..then waitin for them to settle whether wan go find alo a not..settle for 45mins or so..stil duno wan go a not...=.=""
in the end...ask them go lau pat sat...then they so enthu..=.="
then eat eat lor...then after eating..alow came with esther...they eat..n we end up watchin them eat...=.=
left for taxi...walk so dam long...wanna find taxi..but no hab any?!?!
dam suxs la..tot taxi faster..but we spend ard 30mins stil no taxi...@#!#@!
one by one go home..yaps...so tired...i wan watch vcd!!but then..hw all not done...n i m tired!!! tink gonna slp soonz...tink so..
not hapi dun force out smile...but do u knoe thats strong?or rather act strong =.=
be strong?i will be...
goin slp soon..to hell with those hw...go n die better...yaWnS

AnGrY yEt CaNnOt aNgRy

...weird topic...but then...today juz happen this case....so ...the feelin is so...basket ba...=.=""
imagine u reply ppl in a not hapi mood...and that person reply so happili as if nth happen....and its logical things that the person reply...bleahz...guess u all sure blur wad i tokin..nvm...juz feel like throwing my hp away...
and ya..happi bday hf...~~
nvr reply mi again...suxs?no idea...yawns...forget wad time i msg liow..10 plus? or 9 plus?
dun wan reply then forget it...wad for i wan msg lor...@!#!@#
realli regret replyin...ZZZ!
must learn smartie liow...dun anyhow reply...no bother liao...
yeahh...got vcd watch liow..shld i go tml?or shld i not?no idea~~
nice nite at sentosa...esp pastamania yesterday...nice chatttt
nice feelin..everythin so nice...but one thing is missin..on the way bek..hoho...no elaboration on that...^^
no choice ?or got choice?
no idea...i duno wad i typin liao...jyaaaa~

JuZ bOuGhT tHiS doLL doLL yEsTerDaY~~...cUtEs riTe ^^

^^

10 tHiNgS i HaTe AbT yOu

I hate the way you don't call me back
I hate the way you act so stupid
I hate the way I feel without you
I hate the way you make me smile
I hate the way your never there
I hate it when you make me cry
I hate the way you touch me
I hate the fact that you have a girlfriend
I hate that I can't have you
but most of all I hate the way
I don't hate you
not even a little
not even at all

TrUtH aBt GeRz...^^

tHe TrUtH 'bOut GiRlS
1. wHeN a giRl sAyS sHe'S sAd, bUt sHe aiN't cRyiNg, iT mEaNs sHe'S cRyiNg iN hEr hEaRt.
2. wHeN sHe iGnOrEs yOu aFtEr yOu'Ve dOnE sOmEtHhiNg wRoNg, iT's bEsT tO giF hEr sOmE tiMe tO cOoL dOwN b4 tOuChiNg hEr hEaRt wiF aN aPoLoGy.
3. A giRl cAn't fiNd aNyThiNg tO hAtE 'bOut tHe gUy sHe lOvEs wHiCh iS Y iT's sO hArd fOr hEr tO 'gEt oVeR hiM' aFtEr tHe rElAtiOnShiP iS oVeR..
4. iF a giRl lOvEs a gUy, hE'LL aLwAyZ b oN hEr miNd eVeRy miNuTe oF tHe dAy, eVeN iF sHe iS wiF hEr bEsT giRLfReNs..
5. wHeN tHe gUy sHe lYkS sMiLeS n lOoKs dEeP iNtO hEr eYeS, sHe'LL siMpLy mElT.
6. A giRl lYkS tO hEaR cOmPliMeNtS bUt uSuAllY iS nOt sUrE hOw tO rEaCt tO dEm.
7. wHeN a gUy fLiRtS wiF a giRl vErY oFtEn, tHe giRl wUd sTaRt wOnDeRiNG iF tHe gUy lYkS hEr. sO iF yOu tReAt a giRl oNlY aS a fReN, gO eZ oN tHe sMiLeS n sTaReS kAeZ..
8. iF yOu dUn lYk a giRl hU lYkS yOu, teLL hEr gEntLy..
9. iF a giRl sTaRtS aVoiDiNg yOu aFtEr yOu rEjEctEd hEr, lEaVe hEr aLoNe fOr aWhiLe..iF yOu sTiLL tReAt hEr aS a fReN, tOk tO hEr..
10. giRls eNjOy tOkiNg aBt wAd dEy fEeL..mUsiC, pOeTry, dRaWiNg n wRiTiNg r wAyS oF eXpReSsiNg tHeMsElVeS wHiCh eXpLaiNs Y mOst giRls lYk wRiTiNg jOuRnAlS n lEtTeRs..
11. nV teLL a giRl tAd sHe iS uSeLeSs iN aNy wAy.
12. bEiNg tOo sEriOuS mAy tUrN a giRl oFf..
13. wHeN tHe gUy sHe lYkS caLLs hEr fOr tHe 1sT tiMe, tHe giRl mAy aCt uNiNtErEsTeD dUriNg tHe caLL..bUt aS sOoN aS tHe pHoNe iS bAcK oN tHe hOoK, sHe wiLL whOOp wiF jOy n iMmEdiAtEly sTaRt tElEpHoNiNg hEr fReNs tO sPrEaD tHe nEwS..
14. A sMiLe mEaNs a lOt tO a giRl.
15. iF yOu lYk a giRl, tRy bEiNg hEr fReN 1st..lEt hEr gEt tO nOE mOrE aBt yOu..
16. iF a giRl sAyS sHe cAn't gO oUt wiF yOu cOz sHe hAs tO sTuDy, jUz lEaVe..
17. bUt iF sHe sTiLL caLLs yOu oR eXpEcT a caLL fRm yOu, sTaY..
18. dUn tRy tO gUeSs a giRl'S fEeLiNgS..aSk hEr..
19. hEaRiNg tHe wOrdS "i lOvE yOu" iS a gReAt rEaSsUrAnCe tO a giRl tAd sHe iS bEaUtiFuL..
20. aFtEr a giRl faLLs iN lOvE wiF a gUy, sHe'LL wOndEr Y sHe nV nOtiCed hiM bEfOrE..
21. iF yOu nEed tiPs oN hOw tO fLiRt wiF a giRl, rEad rOmAnCe sToRiEs..
22. wHeN cLaSs piCtUrEs cUm oUt, a giRl wUd 1st cHeCk hU iS sTaNdiNg nExt tO hEr cRuSh bEfOrE aCtUaLLy lOoKiNg aT hErSeLf..
23. a giRl's eX-cRuSh wiLL aLwAyX B iN hEr mEmOrY, bUt tHe gUy sHe lOvEs nOw sTaYs iN hEr hEaRt..
24. giRls lOvE hAviNg fUn!
25. a siMpLe 'Hi' cAn bRiGhTeN a giRl's dAy..
26. a giRl's bEst fReNs uSuALLy nOe bEsT wAd sHe iS fEeLiNg n gOiNg tHrU.
27. giRls hAte iT wHeN a gUy pAyS aTtEnTiOn tO dEm jUz tO gEt cLoSe tO tHeiR 'pReTtiEr' fReN..
28. lOvE mEaNs dEvOtiOn, cAriNg n hApPiNeSs tO a giRl, iN tAd oRdEr..
29. sOmE giRls cArE aBt lOoKs, sOmE cArE aBt bRaiNs, bUt ALL giRlS wAn a gUy hU'LL lOvE n cArE fOr dEm..
30. giRlS wAn nTh mOrE tHaN tO fEeL lOvEd..
31. giRlS wAit mOnThS n yEaRs fOr tHe gUy dEy lOvEd siMpLy cOz dEy wAnTeD tO b lOvEd iN rEtUrN..

Zzz...in cls now..c programmin lesson..but nth to do..cos finish my practical for week 1 liow...and the teacher nvr post practical 2..so now slackin...been slackin for 1 hr...hoho...surfing ard....so dam sian...noone online...wad a dulllll day...*yawNs

Juz take somethin out to post...found in my email...~
Long but meaningful...haha...^^

Love is like 2 people filling up a piece of paper...

A relationship starts off as a clear piece of paper. A guy and a gal
agrees to write on that piece of paper. When it starts, both r excited
as it's their first time working together. They fill up the paper with the
best of things they can think of. Sometimes the guy writes more,
sometimes the gal writes more. Some people writes without thinking much, some
writes after some thought.

As the writing carries on, it gets more and more tiring. The couple have
to be motivated to keep on writing. This is the commitment and
responsibility of a relationship. As long as the urge to write
continues, the writing will never end. It will carry on paper after
paper until one pen's ink run out. This is eternal love till death do us
apart...

Some couples prefer to write together, some write their own and combine
the efforts. Neither side should be the only one writing, else ink may get
blocked for the party who writes non-stop. Too tired...

The character of a person is like the handwriting on the paper...
Everyone has his/her handwriting. It is very difficult to change one's
handwriting. Not impossible but it takes a lot of time and hard work.

The outcome may not be desirable. It is also difficult to imitate the
handwritings of another person. The most one can do is to be tidier or
more untidy in their handwritings. Sometimes, to make the writing on the
paper look more presentable, it could be necessary for either side to slightly
alter the style of his/her handwritings...

A mistake in love is like a smudge on the paper... Whether purposely or
accidentally a smudge is a smudge. No matter how well the writing has
gone. So far or how lovely is the content, a smudge will leave a mark no
matter how well u cover it (eraser, liquid paper, etc.). Whether to keep
on writing will depend on the perception of the couple. Whether they
mind the content more or the outlook of the piece of work more.

Worst case is when the paper is torn. It'll leave a very ugly mark.
Well, the decision lies with the couple...

To break-off is to stop writing... Many reasons can lead to this ending.

One party could be the one writing non-stop and really too tired to
carry on anymore. One party or both could be unsatisfied with the content or
really dislike what each other is writing (it takes time to know the
writing style of someone, it could be halfway through the paper before
it is known).

Or a smudge exists and either one or both mind (depend on their level of
Perfectionism). Or it could be what they r writing r contradicting each
other. It can also be the case where one party finds another partner to
write with...

Other analogies... Pen users r serious lovers. Those who use pencils
like to test things out first. Some even write drafts with other people
(many-timers).

After a breakup, a photocopy of the writings so far is made and this is
given to a party while the other keeps the original (for memories).Or it
could be either or neither will keep the writings. It could also be the
original work lies there waiting for the original writers to be back.

A well-done masterpiece could be bound into a book and kept
forever. Likewise in some cases, it may be pieces of paper lying
around. Different people write different things and have different
outcomes. In the case of people going through many relationships, it's
just like changing partners to work with.

Some may write things according to past experiences or have new ideas.
While writing, the couple may exchange their pens. In a new
relationship, one party might mind that his/her partner's pen has been used by other
people before. Personally I believe this also applies to friendship
right?

It also requires both parties to play their part to keep the friendship
forever lasting.

You only live once. What do you really want to do and achieve in life?

Let's think, learn & share. It is a meaningful journey.

DoLpHiN ^^

^^

SceNeRy ^^

^^

eloz bloggieeee
currentli waitin for my stomach not that full first then go bathhhh~
almost lose my taggie board when i remake this site...the skin...bleahz..looks a bit strange...the archive all that is below...but then..lazi to go read n change codes..=D
so..doesnt matter...hohoho..merri christmas~
why everyone so bz lorrrr...noone acc mi go buy pencil case...bleahz...~~
tml another heavy baggie day...sianz...later gonna do my c prog practical..no choice..dun wan go bek sch on saturday^^
"Greed is gd..it creates new ideas...we learn love ,( ....er...wad else ar...forget liao)...from greed...."
*yaWnS*
boring talk..basicalli tok with keeyong who sit bside mi..haha..tok when sian ba..
hmm...sushiko is stil so....>< bleahz...after my c programmin lect..went to find the guys...sianz...they went basketball court?...wan play bball..but end up all sit ther...ZZZ!
then sushiko,fadhli,adrian and keeyong they all came...
sittin on the bench...with my lappie bside...that ger...choose to use her butt and squeeze seat... -___-"
not that close with her?....sianz lor..total sianed...then went lect hall outside wait...wait n wait...thers stil a lect goin on...so listen them tok...lame as usual...but so nice feelinnn..cos its my clsss~~^^ although i the onli ger ther..(for my cls)but at least dun feel so weirdd~~
hmmm...b4 go in..that mr zip ask ppl go buy water for that speaker cum guest...
weifu kanna the task..haha...then when Q & A time...they keep ask him to claim money from the speaker or the teacher...~~tryin to be funni~~
but however...nice nice feelin long time no hab liow ^^
but gina n jess arrr..u all shld be here also maaaa...whole cls maaa ^^
all late late late..throw mi alone...HAIZ...hahaha
shld be able go bath soon le..water is hot...but then...not yet hungry...=.="
later then settle my cprog...^^
whers our movie day ~~~ T.T
"use 5 senses to observe...touch is a VERY POWERFUL sense.......Zzzzzzzzzzz"
stupid lesson =.=""
jya ne~ wil be bek to update when free~~
*He Li En - Bu Xiang Ni*

be strong be strong be strong...tats wad u say...
i m trying hard to..but no matter wad..i will be strong..hahaha
one more yr to go...how long wil it last?sigh** no idea
so sianz...duno wad to blogggggg...homework n homework...
i nid a doll doll to acc mi n let mi hug le...hahahah...crazy js tokin crazy..but isnt it great to hab a doll whose always by ur sideeeee?
hahahahaha..i tink i reali crazy le
jyane
*Wang Li Hong - Ni Bu Zai*

Dear, I fear we're facing a problem
you love me no longer, I know
and maybe there is nothing
that I can do to make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
that I ought to stick to another man
a man that surely deserves me
but I think you do!

So I cry, and I pray and I beg

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to
Love me love me
say that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Lately I have desperately pondered,
spent my nights awake and I wonder
what I could do have done in another way
to make you stay
Reason will not reach a solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
as long as you don't go

So I cry, I pray and I beg

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
love me love me
pretend that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me

So I cried, and I begged for you to
Love me love me
say that you love me
leave me leave me
just say that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

Love me love me
say that you love me
fool me fool me
go on and fool me
Love me love me
I know that you need me
I can't care about anything but you

*The Cardigans - Love Fool*

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short update after so dam long....................................
go surf this when freeeeeeeeeee
...work work n work...hw hw hw...phew...
juz cam bekie from japppyyy lesson...very losttttttt....my fren n i ..dam losttttt....she tok so fast...mabbe used to the other teacher's way of teaching...
basicalli was lost lost lost....bleahz...enter wrong cls mabbe...><
omg omg...c prog cls so dam bored...noone same cls...but guess like that then can hab a...wahahha..i sot ...bleahz...
anyway..gina...i no save money for goin redang yetttttt!!!u blanja mi n jessss laaa...since u n kurt save so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..hoho..onz...
and jessica...i updatin liow...~~
tml mornin clssss...actualli duno wad shld i write...
erm..hmm...
tis sem so bz...teacher all start floodin hw...MWS got tutorial?...hmm..haben do...cprog got practicals?..did 3 onli...jappy nid revise?..haben revise...swt...enuff to die...
yaaaa..juz now tokin to my hongkong fren in jap cls...hmm..broke out with her bf..so move out to stay with her frens..7-8 ppl share a terrace hse..omg..so fun i tink..
go home can see fren..total freedom to go out anywher anytime...~~
anywayz...nth much to say...go do my things le..jya ne !!!~~~~
*JTL - A BeTTeR dAy*