sad month

its reali a sad month...someone help can?god can u hear mi?????????

he was rite...very rite...

Miracles?

do u bleaf in miracles..?i hope it will happen...stupid hope...but i reali wish it will happen...

sAd

i feel sad...i feel useless...

pRoM NiTe

wanted to write abt prom..but i guess later ba..not in a gd mood now

i cant control...n i reali cant...

results out...

well...as u can see...results are out...
dun reali wanna comment on that...cos i duno wad i wan to say...
my mood is stil depressed...n i m stil emotionalli unstable...
so..cant reali bring u updates...sry guys n pplz...

feelin dam suxs...

well..for the past 24hrs..i haben eat...onli drink n drink...letme see...afternoon drank a cup of milk...then drink white tea...then teh ping...
i m not tryin to be on diet...dun mistaken...i reali dun hab any appetite for anythin...
was in a shock ever since yesterday,wed midnite...after knowin some stuffs..
duno why things will happen til this way...mabbe all along is my fault ba...reali..everythin...
i reali dun bleaf...reali...sorriz..i m stubborn..i m fan...but i reali dun bleaf....
.......duno how long more b4 i reali will be out of this sufferin...
i knoe its up to me...but my tears jus drop whenever i tot of it...i m weak i knoe...my eyes so pain ledi...
i reali hope...i can dun even tink of anythin...i reali wanna be hapi...i reali wan.......
but it reali hurts....very hurt.....
y wanna lie mi...y wana let mi knoe all tat...y wanna treat mi like tis...
i knoe i must be strong...i knoe i nid to be...but for now...i reali cant...reali cant.........
can anyone understd my feelins?i m tryin my best...to dun do stupid things....i m reali tryin...but i reali duno...will i b able to do it........i reali duno..........

i m so hurt......................

Msia Trip

well...as the title says..yap..been bek from msia...
but before i tok abt that...jus tok abt the wireless jam competition thing ba..
for this yr...Np onli manage to get one award..that is the best application award that is actualli voted by people in the market place...honestli speaking...i jus can say ..it wasnt reali wad NP deserve to get...even though i m from np...but its too cheat ba...why i say so?well...Np send in ard 23 teams into the finals...max is 3 ppl per team...and then each member is given a voting paper too...basicalli...all the votes are being cast in one team...=.=" get it?
anywayz..the whole competition aso quite suxs...in a sense that the judgin wasnt reali fair...
Tp won almost all the award...but like wad hj say...it shld be competing by applications...but they brought products to compete...wellx..imagine a robot n a demo application...which one seems nicer?sure is robot... another thing is originality which was mentioned in the judgin criteria...the games are not original ba...cos......................it jus some games n implemented onli...ok...havin said that...wellx...not that i bad loser...i tink my application is the lousiest anywayz..but jus some thoughts abt this wireless jam ba...after all..first time join...

thursday went jb with gin n jes...wellx all i can say is...boring.............
why do i say so?cos basicalli its so singapore- shoppin centre aliked...except mabbe..bigger?in terms of space to walk........n ya...food cheaper.......
near 4pm..actualli sms someone to ask for places of nice shoppin..but i receive 3 phone calls bek ard 20mins later...i reject all 3...reason being..........pickin up phone call will be so ex..........esp in jb...n til now i duno who call mi btw...
fri ard 2pm+ got ppl call mi aso....but i was not with my phone..thus no pick up also...sry to that person..i reali duno who u r...cos its annonymous.......n i not purposeli kap ur phone k?
today sat...basicalli doin nth...or rather...watch vcd...those i watch b4..i cont watch...jus to kill time...i m crazy...thats wad i feel...u knoe ma...i reali duno wad i m doin............reali duno..................

Revamped

had finished changing the skin...wellx...took mi quite long..><
wad shld i blog on today?
not reali in a mood...cos jus finish hearing a sad story...
seems like my fren is aso havin a hard time now...sighz..it seems like that horoscope ppl had almost the same personality...realiz...jus resembles totaliz...
pray that everythin will turn out fine...
*sighz

Feelin BoRed + saNx...+ suXs...........as Usual...bleahz

yesterday actualliz tried to post entry...but dun reali knoe wad happen to blogger...didnt managed to post a long entry up...mabbe god stoppin mi...no idea...

anywayz, yesterday didnt slp...i duno why...but jus cant seem to fall asleep...in the nite...the memories all came bek to mi fast...n i actualli cant stop myself from thinkin n missin himz...n i reali do wonder wher is he now...but nvrtheless...i cant do anything too...

13th April sp convention...pls come visit kkkk?cos there is booth voting too...n i haben do the poster n all those stuffs yet...argh...jus not in the mood to do so...Tink ntu n nus reali is dun wan mi liow...sighz...sad...jus gonna wait again...

ok..i m tryin to blog like last time...so bear with mi ok??since i didnt manage to get to slp yesterday...ard 10am i m stil awake n playing with that dog...then jus go to my mother room n prepare to slp...soon fell aslp n woke up ard 4 pm plus...automatically went down to open mailbox...it had become a habit...to check my mailbox for letters...bleahz...

later then cont blog if i hab the time...jyaz..

*~ wshn ~* desu..mssn himz...

Demo...
wellx..the demo actualli went quite suxs...and here i m trying to blog a normal entry like last time i used to...n i emphasize...its trying...
firstly..was suppose to meet up at 10 at suntec to prepare for the presentation thing...but cos ict server too troublesome..teacher didnt manage to import the newest version up..n thus ...took cab to sch first...after which...FINALLi manage to import it up cos of the support ppl...den took cab with teacher to suntec...met ard 1050 like that...demo at 1205...
IDA have a stupid system...u nid to register for internet access..and it gives u a password n username...n it last for 1hr onli!
n ok abt that..nvm..it require PEAP authentication..n it makes dam a lot ppl unable to access the wireless...the technician was said to come down soon...so from 1205...our demo was pushed back to ard 3pm++?
PDAS cant connect to internet too..thus finali the demo was on IE..=.="
nvm abt that again...the internet acess was cut off halfway...cos 1 hr over.....so we use localhost...but localhost the thing i edit b4...thus dam suxs...
overall quite suxs la...the judges are 2 angmohs..n requires so much attention to grab wad they tokinz...arghz...nvm..its over...13th april goin sp convention market place...finalli its going to be over...finalli...
hope its goin to turn out fine again...
lastly..i stil miss himz...
sighz...

forcing myself to stay awake now...or shld i go slp now?no idea...
tml having demo...worried that cant wake up...
how can one stay hapi?
anyone care to share?
anyway...one more qn..how did i manage to blog last time?.........
seems like my memory is failing mi...and also my mood...everytime i wanna blog things...i jus cant type...even if i type..the most it will be saved as draft...
i reali so hate the me now...realiz so hate.........

thanx for those who remember my bday and bother to msg or call or celebrate with mi....
as expected...this yr bday is stil as sucky as last yr...but i did tried my best to be hapi...
certain thing make mi sad n disappointed...but aso...certain things make mi surprised n hapi...but u noe wad...the ratio is 1:2...sad:hapi
but...the 1 stands 90%...while 2 stands 10%
thats all i wanna comment on this yr bdayz...

had a terrible nite...or rather..tonite everythin seems to come to mi again...
i nid a direction between 1 yr to 3 yrs...
nid a direction to wad i suppose to do next...n wher i m suppose to go....