so FAN arghz..
i knoe i shldnt be...but i lose my control againz..
well...gimme some time to go back to the life last time ba...
+forbidden Love+

I a.m s.o t.i.r.e.d....
a.r.g.h.z...
+I need you tonight+

elox bloggie..
mi backx..
well...such a boring day without mi comic...
and ya...thanx gin first.......seriousli thanx..
wellz wellz...wad did i do today...slp til 4-5pm then wake up...i tink 3-4 to be exact..
damn hot!!
BTH....then play my guitar...yeahz...Eyes on me...Forbidden Love..
wellz...didnt tink much today..?
or did i...?

wellz....howz?
thanx gin for ya advice...but i wunt let him knoe...wahaha
call mi stupid or coward ba..

*the hardest thing*

i d.u.n c.a.r.e

elox bloggie...
hows life...hmm...for mi...stil as sucky ba...

anywayz...
<>
hmm..jes...are u refering to mi....
if it is...i can onli say sori...its not tt i dun wan to tell u all anything...but its til now..i also duno wad i am doin..
i m trying to forget everythin...n since its the end le...why shld i tell pple then..
cos if i tell out this thing...it will be veri unfair to the other person or whoever ba...hope u do understd..
and one more thing..if the above msg is for mi...i can onli say...theres no classes to fwenz ba...all of u are my gd fwens ba...
maybe tts why i ended up duno wad to do now ba...

forget it...sometimes...somethings i realli wan u guys to knoe...but i realli cant...why cant u all for once understd it...
the hurt n pain is more then u all wil tink of...hafing noone to tok to ..and juz put everythin inside of yur ownself...
nvm...i haf nth more to say...jYa
-Wo Zhi Zai Hu Ni-

dear bloggie...yoz..mi back to update ya..
wellz...today toked to him..not on phone la...
but i duno whyz...i actualli dun feel like tokin to him one..
but end up craps a bit ba..
stil ask him go sms ba..
i tink he shld be smsin now.......
i also duno
haiz...i duno la...duno wad to write la..
jyaZ
-Lu ren Jia-

Yoz...
today she told mi...his sms...abt 1000++ this month...
she added that he did not msg her as often le...then added tt maybe bill high..
yeahz...i agree too...
wellz...todayz she went his hse?..
haha....suxs la..
bleahz...
forget it...dun haf mood write le...JyAz
-Wo zhi zai hu ni-

#^HaPPy BiRtHdAy GiNa...^#

Yo bloggie...
firstly...jean...not i wan bother abt his things 1...
its juz in my mind everyday...i cant seem to forget lor..
now the onli thing i wan to do is bury in work, fwens...make
myself as bz as possible...to stop tinkin abt himz..

wellz bloggie...some updates...
yest he msg mi...
at work in the afternoon...sighz...i also ask him dun waste his msg..
then when i am home...n online..he got msn mi...guess wad i do...
i ask him go msg tt ger...haha...lames i knoe...
wells...his com spoil...so he went offline..
then he sms mi when watching tv...i ask him sms tt ger..
after a small break...he sms mi againz..i againz ask him msg tt ger...
haiz...
i knoe i sound beri wad...i dunno if wad i did was wrong was rite...
but chang tong bu ru duan tong rite...
since he got her le...wad for i so sticky n hold on..
i realli out of energy le lor..
btw...tt ger say the things...also pricked mi heart til like hell le lor..
goin his hse...close to him until call dear...almost everyday sms...
wad can i do?bloggie ah..if u were mi..would u stil hold on?
she's my gd fwen...realli gd fwen whu take care of mi......so i cannot blame her also
...
i got a feelin tt she likes him...i duno whyz...
mabbe i too sensitive le ba...but i dun care...i realli hope i can dun care..
dear god...pls gif mi a route........
mabbe this story had ended wif my last sms of asking him to msg her ba...
yeahz...ended...
=Yes i Love You=

yox bloggie...how lifes?
yeahz...doesnt seem to go anywhere better...
juz sort of sianz...
n stil beri dulan myself for caring when i shouldnt care at allz..
hmmz...find myself beri self contradicatin also...
one hand i feel like knowing his news...on the other...i dun feel like..
today he sms mi i also ask him dun waste his sms.
actual fact is...i cant stand lor...
as for why he wuld msg mi..its stil a mystery..which i dun wan care...
=\
hmmmz....quite long no see le...let me see...8 days le ba...tml then 9...haha..
gd wad..
nahz...today heard some news abt him n tt girl which i dun wanna hear...
but wad can i do..
turn a deaf ear ba..
she say so i listenn
=\
dunoz ba...but she treat mi also gd...arghz...dunoz...
gettin complicated...actualli....tink of it..
i onli haf to dun care him n dun cont sinkin like him then can le ba..
everytime wuld be solved...
=D
yeahz..maybe..
tml will be a better day ba...
+=PiaO baI dE Xin - JoeY rOng zU eR=+

elox bloggie...yoyoz..
yest i juz settled thigns wif ky...haha..
i juz told him we be fwens n all tt...
he got replied...n i feel beri hapiz tt its fwens..
=D
anywayz...hapiz ba...n my mind is sort of more clear now ba,,
=)
whyz shld i be so hard on myself for thinkin...he's my nobody..
he got her n tts enuff le..
okz...i shld stop here...lazi type out more..
+kang wo 72 bian+

hiz bloggie...
today was a fine day ba...except..i dunno..
well...met winnie to take comic from her at admiralty at 11...then met ivy at marsiling mrt platform
at abt say 12 i tink...we went bukit batok driving centre sign up for basic theory test..
damn long queue...
abt 130++ then we settled everythin n went westmall meet pple..
wellz...
i realli hate myself lor..
i was doin fine...tryin not to bother so much...but...after a while...i stil bother abt HIM...arghz....
dear bloggie...i dunno...but i realli plan not to see him for long...
cos maybe thats the onli way my feelins for him wil deplete...
well..for these few days it realli depletes....
juz now saw someone's msn put something like
"girls are selfish...they dun let the guy they like to haf other gals in mind..."
wellz...
arghz...
its quite true..
but the moment i saw tt...my mind is beri the confused againz...
sighz...a bit hurting when i saw tt msg..cos its from someone which is close to him ba...
mabbe its meant for him..i duno...but anywayz...why shld i care rite........haiz..
bloggie...realli tong ku sia...but also cannot do anything...wellz...
tml workin le..
today joyce call mi say abt her stead thingy...i also neber go accompany her...wellx...cos its too far..
hopefulli she can be safe ba...n hopefulli tt guy wil treat her nice againz..
mabbe i tink too much..i dunoz...but i hope i can get thr this...
sighz..
tml..work...and ktv wif alo they all...hopefulli it wil juz turn out well...
juz feel like shouting ...
sibeh bth myself le...ARGHZZHZZZZZZZZZZZZZz
*wAng Ji Ba WanG JI!*

yo bloggie...hows life??
wellz wellz wellz..
2 days le...
haha...
since exam over 2 days..
2 days no see pple le...
wellz...how i feel?
haha...alrite ba..
i stil bleaf in myself..
i chose this path...that requires time..
wellz...anywayz...
like wad was being told
wads meant to be meant to be..
therefore i see it quite through le..
my fwens are more imprt then anything...
cos they are the ones whu are supporting mi ..
yeah..
anywayz...ginz..
something to tell u...
i suddenli wil miss u sia!!!
lolx..
and ya...jeanz..miss ya tooz..
everyone also..
=~l
sighz...
i hope...i can go through this...fast...n safe...
may god bless himz ba...
*Guang Dao Zhi Lian*